The Drug To My Heart \\ Depressed Reader x K. Bakugo

Chapter 9

~WARNINGS, CURSING, BLOOD, METIONS OF SUICIDE, REFRANCE TO DRUGS~

A/N: 'This Means Thinking'

"Ya just, nervous."

  Eventually school ended, that's means I have to talk to Deku. I don't want to fight him or hurt him, but if I have to I will.

Y/N L/N 3:30pm
Hey Deku, were do you want me to meet you?

Deku 3:31pm
In front of the dorms is fine, I'm already here so.

Y/N L/N 3:31pm
Okay.

  "Hey Katsuki, Deku said he's infront of the dorms waiting." Bakugo and I walked side by side in the halls while we made our way to the front door. "That damn nerd, should've known he would've done somthing like this." Bakugo 'tsked' and continued to walk with me. "Exuse me, Y/N is it?" I turned after I heard a tired voice from behind me. "Uhh, yep that's me!" I smiled at the the purple haired boy. "Oh not this extra again." Bakugo rolled his eyes and looked at the boy. "Well I'm Hitoshi Shinso, I just had a quick question." Shinso was holding a cup of coffee in his hand and had bags under his eyes. "Well go ahead, ask away!" I look over to my right a little and see almost my whole class coming over me Bakugo and I.

  Within seconds I felt like my body was being taken over, I couldn't move and I wasnt looking at my friends anymore. I tried to talk but nothing came out of my mouth. "YOU EXTRA! WHAT THE HELL!" Katsuki started to scream at the boy but was being held back by Kirishima. Almost the whole came over to Shinso and I to watch. "Tell me Y/N, how do you really feel about yourself?" Soon my mouth was opening to speak, but not the words, I wanted to come out. "I hate myself."

  'No. No. No. No, why did I say that? I must be this guys quirk or somthing!'

"And what do you want to do with your life Y/N?" Shinso took a sip of his coffee and waited for my response. "I want to end it." The group gasped, Bakugo broke free from Kirishima and tackled Shinso to the ground. I was let out of his trance and fell to my knees. Tears started streaming down my cheeks. I gathered myself and my belongings, and ran to the front door. I burst though the double door and ran the the dorm building. I saw a familiar green headed boy sitting in the front yard. He looked calm and cool. But he was covered in bruises

  I walked up beside him and sat down in the grass. I placed my side bag next to me at looked at Deku. "So, what did you want to talk about?" I already knew what he wants from me and I was still a little shaken from what just happened. "Well yesterday was kinda a blur to me, I felt like I wasn't in my own body. Like I had no control over myself." Deku looked down at the dark green grass. "Well that's what weed can do you Deku." I looked at his green messy hair. "Oh so that's what that was. Look Y/N, I'm really sorry about everything." Deku plucked some grass for the ground and twirled it around his bruised fingers. "I'm sorry for everything aswell, I don't know what came over me." We both made eye contact and smiled. "Have you told this to Uraraka?" Deku looked away from me. "No, not yet." He picked up more grass while he spoke. "If you don't mind me asking, what the hell happened between you two." Deku looked at me and then back down at his red sneakers.
 
  "She texted me to meet her outside because she had some news to tell me. I met her and she told me that she was dating Iida now. I got really jealous and aggressive towards her and told her that I loved her more then him. We b-both started to s-scream as a group started to f-form, and soon I attacked h-her." Deku started to have tears fall down his cheeks and into the grass below him. "Y/N, thank you." Deku looked me in the eyes and smiled. "What why? I beat the shit out of you!" Tears were starting to form in my eyes. "You helped me stop, you helped me snap back into reality, you helped me see what I was doing." Deku leaned over and wrapped his arms around my torso. I hugged him back as we both cried into eachother shirts. After a couple minutes we parted and smiled at eachother. I checked the time and it was almost 4. I needed to meet Kirishima soon. "I have to go, bye Deku." I got up, grabbed my shoulder bag, and went inside the dorms.

  Almost the whole class was sitting in the common area together. All of their eyes were soon on me as I passed them to go to the elevator. None of them followed me or asked me anything. I soon got to my floor, that conveniently Kirishima's dorm was on aswell. I went over to the door and knocked three times. I heard suffering form the other side until Kiri opened the door and hughed me tightly. "I was so worried about you! I didn't know that... that you feel that way Y/N." He started to cry into my shirt. "Shinso's a dick, I didn't know that he would do that to me." I started to cry little aswell. After we calmed down, Kirishima parted from our hug. "Y/N, you're my bestfriend and I don't want anything's to happen to you. Right now let's just get this studying over with." "Alright"

Eijiro and I studied for about 3 hours. The more I looked over it the more confused I got, Kirishima and I eventually understood the materials and decided to call it a day and pack up. I still needed to visit Ochako. All I can do is hope that shes not asleep. I got back into the elevator and went to Uraraka's floor and then to her dorm. I knocked on her door three times until she came over and opened it. She actually looked okay. She gave me an huge smile and invited me inside.

  "Hey Y/N! What did you need?" Uraraka closes the door behind us. "Oh well, I just wanted to see how you were feeling. You look so much better already!" I smiled at her. "Aw well thank you Y/N! I'm feeling alot better aswell." I walked over to Ochako and gave her a big hug. "This ones from Deku and I." I parted from her and walked over to the door. "Thank you Y/N, have a good night" Uraraka waved me goodbye and and waved to her back.

' I still couldn't get Shinso out of my head'

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A/N: Thank you for all of the support recently, it really means alot to me!😁