The Drug To My Heart \\ Depressed Reader x K. Bakugo

Chapter 19

-WARNINGS- CURSING, METIONS OF RAPE, BLOOD, CUTTING-

A/N:'This Means Thinking'

'The rest the night was blurry, but I know what he did to me.'

"Oh Y/N-chan~!" I flutterd my eyes open, I could see Toga standing in front of me. "Toga?" I was able to speak again. "I heard handy man last night... I'm sorry he did that to you~..." Memories from last night came flooding back into my mind.  Toga cutting my back, Shigaraki threatening me, him doing other things to my body... I could barely remember what happed after that. "Y/N-chan... here is your uniform and L.O.V jacket~." My hands weren't tied down anymore so I took the clouths Toga handed me. "Why?" I said still testing out my voice. "Shigaraki said he's done with you... so you can leave now. Kurogiri said he'll teloport you to the school entrance after the bell rings~."

  Toga slowly walked up to me until her fist met my cheek. "Last night wasn't enough Shiggy said so... I have to cut you up a bit~." Toga tossed the clothes to the ground and pulled out a knife. She slowly cut some lines into my legs. "Here... we all know what you want to do to yourself~..." Toga handed me a knife and left the room.

'I should do it... it's my fault.... all mine.'

  I started to cut my arms and even moved onto my legs. "Y/N-chan are you done in there~?" Toga slowly peaked her head though the door. I ignored her and put my fingers in my blood, and then rubbing it on my cheeks. (Face cheeks pervert.) "Oh... well I didn't think you would do this much... put your outfit on and come with me~." Toga turned around as I got up from the chair and changed slowly as I tried not to get blood on the uniform, my legs and arms hurt so much I could bearly move them. "Put the jacket on when you get to school~." Toga and I walked to the bar where everyone was waiting. "Good morning there Y/N..." Shigaraki cooed at me.
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"Goodbye Y/N-chan... I'll miss you~!" Toga yelled as I walked into the portal and appeared in front of the school. The bell rang as I walked the long halls to my classroom, limping along the way. I slipped on my jacket like I was told.  Finally I reached the class 1-A door, I slowly opened it and looked down as I walked to my desk. "Y/N! Get over here!" Mr. Aizawa yelled in a stern voice. I walked over to him with my head hung down. "Where were you last night! Everyone said you disappeared!"

  'You can't say a word.'

  "I uhh... visited my parents." Deku gasped. "Y/N... you visited your Dad?!" Mummers could be heatd among the students. "Fuck..." I cursed under my breath. "Uhhh... I mean a friend! Yeah a friend... she's uhhh like my mom so..." Deku apologized and bowed profusely. "It's okay Deku..." I could feel that Bakugo's eyes were glued on me the whole time. "Whats up with the jacket Miss. L/N?" Aizawa asked me. "I'm... uhh cold is all. And this is the only jacket I have... I'm so sorry.." I bowed to my teacher. "It's alright L/N... just don't get to use to wearing it. Go sit down I'll put up the heating for everyone since it's pretty cold in here."

Aizawa turned up the heat and I could feel my self get hot... really hot. "Oh L/N... I see that you're wearing a boys uniform... here take the girls, it's against the schools policy sorry." Aizawa handed me the girls uniform and sent me to the bathroom. The only reason I had the boys uniform on is to hide my legs. I went to the bathroom and changed in the girls uniform and put the boys one in my bag. On my way back I waited for the perfect moment to make my clone. I made sure she had no cuts or bruises on her. I walked behind the clone so no one could see me and got rid of her as soon as sat down.
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  The heat was starting to get unbearable, so unconsciously I tied my hair back and took off my jacket. My hair was covering the blood on my face and my jacket was covering my cut and bruised arms. I put my jacket on the floor and continued to work on my paper assignments. Soon I got up and put my paper in the trun in basket, as I was up Aizawa rapped himself in his sleeping bag and said that it was now a free period. As I walked back everyone stared at me. "Y/N..." I looked over and saw Bakugo with tears in his eyes. I looked at him in confusion and then realized... my jacket... my skirt... my hair... They were all exposing my beaten up body.

  I quickly ran over to my desk and grabbed my jacket. "Give me that Y/N!" Bakugo started to pull at me. "Bakugo no!" I used my quirk to push him away so that I could escape. I ran thru the halls and up the stairs. I soon realized I reached the roof. I looked over the edge as I second guessed myself.

  'Why me? I'm disgusting for letting the man touch me... why am I here? Maybe I should just leave, say goodbye to this place... forever...'

I stood on the edge, lost in my own world. I couldn't hear anything... only the muffles of voices that I am sure are in my head.

I took a step... maybe two...

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