The Drug To My Heart \\ Depressed Reader x K. Bakugo

Chapter 18

-WARNINGS- CURSING, PANIC ATTACKS, METIONS OF RAPE, BLOOD-

A/N:'This Means Thinking'

Then I blacked out.

 
  "W-w..." I started to slightly open my eyes, a white light filled my vision. "H-he..." I couldn't speak, my throat was dry and scratchy. "Look who's awake." Recovery Girl filled my vision. "W-wh..." "Don't try to speak hun, your throat is in bad condition..." Recovery Girl handed my a glass of water. "Drink up dear." I snatched the glass from her hands and chugged it all. "Thirsty?" I gave the lady a thumbs up and a smile. I put my hand up to my neck as I sat up.

  My fingers gently glided across the bandages. "You're free to go Miss. L/N, if you need anything come see me." I smiled at the old lady and got out of my bed. I was still wearing my villan attire, the leather jacket still had the L.O.V embroidered into the side of the front and huge on the back. I walked through the halls of U.A utill I reached the front doors.
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  Once I reached the dorm building I checked the time, it was 3:45 so that means the school just ended. I could see though the windows that almost all the studio were sitting in the common area. I opened the glass doors and made sure to walk with confidence. Everyone's heads turned as I made my way to the kitchen. Some of the students got up and followed me.

  "Y/N!" Bakugo grabbed my waist from behind and lifted me up. "..." I couldn't say anything. "What's wrong? Why aren't you saying anything?" I stared at him blankly and then pointed to my neck. "Oh... right." I made a heart with my hands and smiled, Bakugo gave me another hug. "Y/N! You're okay!" Kirishima pushed though the crowd and gave me a hug. I stared to sign to him. 'I missed you!' He looked at me with confusion. My smile faded away until someone spoke up. "She said she missed you..." Bakugo blankly said. 'Wow! You know sign language?' I signed back to him. He nodded. "There is always a chance that I will go deaf because of my quirk, so I decided to learn."

  "Hey Y/N... why do you still have that jacket on?" Mina pushed to the front of the crowd. "..." I looked at her blankly, the memories started to flood back into my mind. Things that I didn't tell anyone, about Shigaraki... and what he did to me. Tears formed in my eyes, my breathing became unsteady. I knew what this meant... a panic attack. My hands wrapped around my stomach and top of my torso. "Woah, Y/N!" Bakugo stood infront of me and tried to calm me down. 'Shigaraki...' I started to spell it out... but couldn't.

  "What did he do to you Y/N!" Bakugo said as Kirishima went to my side. "Give her some space you damn extras!" The group started to back off. 'I can't... not here.' I signed out. I pushed through Katsuki and Eijiro to go to my room. "Y/N!" Bakugo held onto Kirishima's arm. "Just... let her go, she needs space. We will talk to her later." Kirishima backed off.
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    I sat onto my bed and tried to calm myself down, then a purple portal appeared. "Y/N-chan~?" Toga stepped out of Kurogiri's portal. "T...to..." I tried to speak but my throat wouldn't let me. "Y/N-chan~!" Toga tackled me on the bed. "Here Y/N-chan~!" Toga handed me a note pad and a pen. "Use this... since none of us know sign language."
'Us?' I wrote down. "Oh yeah... I'm sorry Y/N-chan, but he threatened my life..." I started to write down a question  but Toga stabbed me with a needle. I tried to use my quirk but Toga snapped a bracelet onto my wrist. "T...to..." My throat was killing me, my vision started to go blurry. The last thing I heard was an alarm... a very loud alarm the indicated that villains have entered U.A.

"I'm sorry Y/N-chan~..."
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  "Hey there... beautiful..." My eyes started to flutter open, I felt a weird liquid trickle down my neck. When I tried to move my arm, it did budge. I looked down a saw that I was strapped to a chair, and my wrists and ankles had quirk erasing bracelets. Infront of me stood Shigaraki and Dabi. "Da.." I started to cough. "You can't talk.. can you?" I looked at Dabi with pleading eyes. I mouthed please, Dabi looked heart broken. "I'm sorry Y/N, I can't help you..." Tears started to run down my cheeks. "Dabi... give us some time alone." Shigaraki shooed the other man away until he left.

  "Now that we are alone... tell me. Did you say anything about... us?" I blankly stared at him. "Y/N... yes or no..." I didn't answer him. "If you're not going to answer my questions... then I'll have Toga have some fun with you... all you had to do I shake your head yes or no. Have fun with Toga... I gave her free range of you." Shigaraki left the dark room and Toga came in after him.

  "Y/N-chan~!" Toga draped herself over me. "Handy-man said I can do anything I want to you... as long as I don't kill you. So... let's started shall we~?" Toga took out one of her knifes a twirled it around. "I would cut your neck but.. Shigaraki beat me to that. So let me think~." My heart started to beat faster, I tried to use my telekinesis but I was shocked. "Oh yeah! I forgot about that! Dont even try to use your quirk~..." Toga walked around the chair with knifes in her hand. "Oh! I got it~!" Toga unhooked my wrists I took off my jacket.

  "I'm glad you kept the jacket! But the rest of the outfit you didn't keep... sad~." Toga strapped my wrists back in and started to cut my shirt off my body. "Okay... so since you're my bestie, I'm going to make sure everyone knows who you belong to!" Toga pushed me forward and stared to carve letters into my back. I tried to scream but my throat was hurting so bad. "P... R... O... P..." my back was stringing and hurting so badly. "E... R... T...Y... PROPERTY! One word done! Three more to go~." Toga wiped the blood all over my back

  "Oh, I just love blood... you know that~!" Toga whispered into my ear. "O... F." I hissed in pain. "T... H... E..." the chair shocked me again. "I told you not to try to use your quirk... the bracelets will shock you~." Toga hald the knife to my back and started to write. "L... Dot... O... Dot...V! ALL DONE!" Toga admired her work. "Property Of The L.O.V~!" Toga wiped the blood all over my back again. "Awww Y/N... you're going to want to wash this blood of you right~?" Toga grabbed both sides of my mouth and made me smile. "I love all this blood! It looks wonderful on you! I won't wash it away... I'll go get Shigaraki! Bye~!" Toga left the room.

  I sat in the chair with my head hung low. All I had on was my bra, pants, and shoes on. Shigaraki entered the room and kneeled down infront of me. "Will you answer my questions now? Or do I have to get Dabi?" I slowly shook my head. "Good. Now, did you tell anyone what we did?" I shook my head no. "Good, did you tell anyone anything about the league?" I shook my head no again. "Will you tell anyone what we did here?" I shook my head no again. "Good..." Shigaraki put his hand on my cheek with only four fingers. "Let's get started... shall we?" He whispered into my ear.

  'The rest the night was blurry, but I know what he did to me.'

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