Emptiness Inside Of Me (a Bastille fanfiction)

Chapter 2 - Torn apart by bad news

"Are you kidding? This is mental.
Cause you know what we had was broken from the start." Kasabian -Bow

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"I am so excited for the tour!" Kyle smiled, jumping around."Aren't you too, guys?"

"Yes. Kind of." Will statted.

Kind of. Great use of that sentence. I was excited to meet my stormers and make them happy, tho I wasn't excited to leave my family, my friends and...that special one.

Woody was rushing in the departure lounge and we all gave him some confused looks? What was the rush?

He went straight to me and gripped my hand. Why would he do that?

"Wh-" I started as Woody, dragged my body to a more cornered place of the airport.

"Listen up, dude." he said in a low tone that freaked me out." I know about your 'little secret'."

I felt my body freeze. So he knew about my crush. He knew.

"Wh-what secret?" I stuttered, staring deeply in his green eyes.

"I know that you..." he cleared his throat."..WANT TO STEAL MY HAIR CONDITIONER,BUT DUDE THAT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN!"

I felt so relieved. I started laughing. God, he did it again. He fooled me.

"Wicked joke, man. You really did scare me with it." I chuckled.

Woody grinned proudly. That bastard.

"So you actually do have a secret, ay?" the drummer wiggled his eyebrows.

I do have a secret, but I couldn't possibly tell him.

"Nah man...My only secret is that I want to steal your hair conditioner..." I lied

He laughed.

"Did he do that joke to you, too, Dan?" Kyle asked me when we got closer to them.

I rolled my eyes as they all giggled. I saw Kathleen , my parents and my sister nearby and I went there to say goodbye to them. Gah, I'm gonna miss these people.

But suddenly. There she was. My crush. My 'little secret'.

"Hey." she said in her sweet tone.

"Hi, Charlie."

She batted her long lashes, sketching a shy smile on her face. Her eyes were blue, almost grey and they sparkled like the stars on the midnight sky. She has sun-kissed skin, untypical for a british girl, but that made her special. Her hair was shoulder lenght, brown and silky. And her lips were full, always red and I just wanted to kiss them right away, but I couldn't...

"Came here all the way to see me?" I asked her as she giggled.

"Yes. I wanted to say goodbye. You will be gone for a long time so..."

I smiled. I stared at her with no shame. I just wanted her to know how I feel. How much I crave her. I want to kiss her, to hug her, to sleep with her ,not in a kinky way, in the most innocent way. Just feel her small arms wrapped around me and her head on my chest, finding comfort and protection next to me. That's what I wanted.

"You are starring at me again...." she remarked, arching one eyebrow.

I blinked fastly and shook my head. I gotta stop. I look like a freak. A creep.

"I'm sorry, it's just..."

"Hm?"

"I won't be seeing you for a while and....you know..." my voice was shaky and I started trembling a bit. I gotta do something.

I gotta go for it.

"Charlie, I..."

"What's it?"

"I...I..."

God, why do I always stutter while talking to her?

"I..."

That's it Daniel. Do it . Now.
I leaned forward and I pressed my lips against hers while I took her small, ferm hand in mine. She pulled away fastly, looking at me, her eyes opened wide.

God. I shouldn't've done that.

"What? What was that?" she asked shocked.

"I really..really like you. I wanted you to know." I told her.

She nodded and took a few steps back.

"Umm..Listen, Dan..I..I..Firstly, that was totally awkward and secondly, I..I have a boyfriend already. I mean, you are one of my best friends and now I'm really shocked and scared that you feel those things for me." Charlie explained.

How am I gonna be an optimist about this? I totally screwed it up. I am an idiot. Idiot. Idiot. Idiot.

"I'm sorry..." I felt some tears forming in my eyes,but I had to look manly, so I kept them away.

"Hey, Dan. Anyways, I hope you're gonna have a good tour and get a little more famous." she smiled.

"O-ok. Thank you." I said.

My mood was down. I felt awful. I felt like my stomach was knotted and I wanted to bury myself in the ground,because of the shame...what is worse, she has a boyfriend. She's unobtainable.