Emptiness Inside Of Me (a Bastille fanfiction)

Chapter 4 - That's What Friends Are For

"I said I'll never let you go and I never did
I said I'll never let you fall and I always meant it. If you didn't have this chance then
I never did, then you'll always find me right there,againg." A Day to Remember - Have Faith in me

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      I was staying in the same room with Will at the hotel, which was a first for me. I've always ended up staying with Kyle or Woody, even Greg, but never Will.

       "So Dan, I have no idea if you know this fact about me, but dude.." he leans over and whispers. ".. I have a lucky unicorn charm that I keep in my jeans' pocket."

        I chuckle. Well, we all have lucky charms, right? For example, I have my bracelets that I never took off since God knows when. They bring me luck...sometimes...

          Lord, I keep thinking about Charlie. I should stop, but I can't. I can't live happily knowing she's not mine. I want her more than anyone. I'm so broken inside. I've never felt like this before. She's such an influence on me. Love hurts like a burning hell. I hope her boyfriend takes good care of her or he's fucking dead.

          "Hey, mate, wanna check out my doodles?" Will intrerupted my thoughts.

          I nodded and smiled.

       He smirked proudly as he took 20 pages out of one of his bags and handed them to me. There were portraits of people I've never seen before, nude portraits of women and men and some body parts like eyes, mouths and arms doodles. I got to admit, those were pretty impressive.

            "They are mental, dude!" I admired them, flicking the pages over and over again.

            "Thanks! I need something to take my mind off the daily stress around us. Drawing helps a lot if you want to forget about various things." he statted, with a bit of dreamy tone.

            I felt a tear roam on my cheek. Were I crying again? What is happening to me? I'm so wrecked when it comes to my feelings. I think I may have a problem.

          "I'm sorry dude. I don't know what's wrong with me. " I say , whipping away my tears.

          "Man, this scares me." he tells me. "What happened?"

        I need to tell him, too. I need to tell all of my friends. They need to know. I am heart broken. This is how it feels like. I wonder what she feels. I wonder if she's a bit sad, but I guess not. I think right now she is having fun with her boyfriend.

         "You should fight for her."

         "How can I? What if the problem is that she doesn't like me?"

         "Well yes, right now she likes that guy,but when the love fades away...you can always have her."

           I move my sight on my dirty white converse. I need to move on from her.

         "I need to...to...you know..move on." I mumble.

         "That's right, son!" Will jokes, wrapping an arm around my shoulder." Com'on! Let's get you a couple of beers and celebrate with the boys! We are having our first concert tomorrow in Cali! Aren't you excited?" he smiles.

          I sketch a small grin. I was really excited actually.