Dreamer Boys in Beanies [Destiel College AU]

Hold My Hand

*A/N
Justanerdygirlx here XD

This is the new and improved version of chapter, so it would fit better with the next one.

Sorry I haven't written in a few days.

Illness
Twist and shout

It all builds up.

Anyway...sorry about the kind of depressingness of this chapter.
It wasn't supposed to be like this...blame T&S!!!

I have the second part of this chapter waiting and it's MUCH happier and MUCH cuter, so please bare with XD
Superwholocks13 may do a chapter in the middle of them, but I'm not sure yet.

Anyway, thank you for reading and enjoy xx*

(Dean's POV)

As we walked along through the thick trees, the light shining brightly into our smiling faces, I felt Castiel's hand brush lightly against mine.
A shiver ran down my body, and I blushed, glancing up at him, squinting through the light to see his face.

I saw a smirk there as he reached down and grasped my hand in his.

My heart started racing and I licked my lips, wetting them, not quite sure what to do.
So I just left it there, laced smoothly in Castiel's, warm and safe and secure.

Sammy and Gabe didn't seem to notice.
They just ran ahead, playing some kind of game where they ran at each other head on, and whoever backed off first was a chicken.

My brother was pretty competitive.
Obviously so was Gabe.

So it was no surprise, when, as me and Cas caught up to them, both were nursing very sore heads.

Cas, to my slight disappointment, quickly dropped my hand to run over and see if the two idgits were ok.
He said something quietly to Sammy, but I didn't catch what it was.
The conversation that followed went a bit like this.

"GAAABE!!! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE A CHICKEN!!!"

Sammy whined, clutching a hand to his forehead.
Gabe glared at him, a bruise also blossoming on his head

"NO!! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE A CHICKEN, SAMANTHA!!!"

"NO, YOU!!"

"NOOOO, YOU!!!"

I didn't quite hear every thing, but I got the general gist.

Knowing small children, this could have carried on for a while, if Cas hadn't, to my amusement, swung Gabe over his shoulder and upside down.

Sammy squealed and jumped away, giggling slightly, as Gabe was jiggled about by Castiel, who was now gripping his feet.

"Are you a chicken now Gabe? Are you a chicken??!!"

Gabe laughed hysterically at his older brother, his voice jolting around and he was shaken.

"Y-ye-e-e-s"

I snorted at Gabes red little face, and started to jog over, just as Cas said

"Good, you gonna behave now?"

And flipped his nodding brother the right way round, setting him down on the road, then bending down quickly to whisper something into his ear.

Sammy grinned smugly at Gabe, and charged off down the road towards the town, yelling back

"CHICKEEEN BRAAK BRAKK BRAAAAK"

Gabe looked at Cas for a second, delighted, before his face turned red and he sprinted after Sammy, yelling at the top of his lungs

"I HAVE MUSCLES TOO SAMSQUATCH!!! I CAN FLIP YOU AS WELL!!"

I watched Cas' laughing face as he watched our little brothers run off into the distance, wondering what he had whispered.
Hoping he would turn to me.
Hoping he would hold my hand again.
But he just carried on walking fast, not even looking back.

It hurt.
It really did hurt.
But it had just been a game.
A stupid game.
It can't have meant anything.
Not to Cas anyway...

I sighed as I scuffed my converse on the pavement, before trailing after him, trying to keep my distance.

Who would want to be seen holding my hand anyway...

We walked quickly through the town, past the dilapidated Uni buildings, and onto campus.
Not a word was spoken until we reached the lifts, where Sammy and Gabe were waiting, impatiently, for us to catch up.

"Urgh!! Took your ti- hey, Dean, what's wrong?"

Sam saw the grumpy look on my face, but I hid it immediately with a fake smile, not wanting Cas to notice.

"What? Nah Sammy, I'm fine...let's er.. Let's go up."

As I stepped into the lift with Sammy and Gabe, I could feel Castiel's eyes on me, burning through my back.

I turned around, pressing the button for the second floor, avoiding his gaze, wondering why he didn't step in too.

"I'm err...I'm gonna walk...need some time to...think...see you guys at the flat."

Just as the doors slid shut, I saw Castiel's smiling mask slip away, before he ran, looking worried.

SHIT.
Shit shit shit SHIT!!
FUCK!
BALLS!

I turned round angrily and hit my head against the mirrors around the walls of the lift.
I momentarily forgot that Sammy and Gabe were there, watching me incredulously, and swore under my breath.

It was Gabe that spoke up first.

"Urm...Dean? Are...you ok?"

I grunted, pulling my face away from the wall, my glasses lying crookedly on my nose, blushing faintly.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm good...I. Am. Goooood"

It was silent for a few seconds, the two small boys looking at me disbelievingly.
God these kids were sharp.

My thoughts were confirmed when Sammy spoke up, looking worriedly for my reaction..

"I saw you two holding hands y'know...you like him. I can tell."

I blanched.

Then I turned to my brother, glaring.
I had never yelled at him before.
Not once.
But he really had touched a nerve.

Because I did like Cas.
A lot.

But now it seemed he didn't reciprocate.
And It hurt.

I wasn't going to be shown up.

"You know what?! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING SAMMY!!! ANYTHING!! You. Are. Ten. Years. Old. You know NOTHING about this!! So just shut the HELL UP OK?!! Shut. Up"

I regretted the words as soon as they left my mouth.

I saw hurt register in Sammy's eyes.
I saw the surprise in Gabe's.

My little brother's lips quivered, wide eyes blinking back tears.

I hated myself just then.
I really, really did.

I didn't care if Sammy was mad at me.
I reached over and grabbed him into a warm hug, talking quickly and quietly into his hair.

"I'm so sorry Sammy. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
You know I don't mean it.
You were right Dude, I like Cas, I really do.
But he doesn't like me back ok.
I'm just upset Sam, I'm just upset."

Sammy struggled for a second, but then relaxed, understanding, and then hugged me back tightly, sniffing.

I had the best little brother in the world.

But over his shoulder, I saw Gabe looking at me.
He had heard.
And I was confused at the expression on his face.

He was smirking.