A Simple Favor

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Y/N POV

Blake and I made breakfast together like we have many times before. I tried to be as normal as possibly to avoid making anything awkward considering what I had just learned, but I still had a few questions.

We sat down at her table, our plates full of waffles. Most of breakfast was eaten in silence but I didn't mind. Blake still seemed to be a little more closed off than usual, so I wanted to make sure she felt safe and comfortable around me. 

I was starting to get full, so I slowed down and turned to her hesitantly. "C-can I ask you something?" I started, not wanting to overstep or anything. 

"You just did." Blake replied with a cheeky smile, although I could tell it was a bit forced. 

"Yeah." She said quietly, her tone becoming more serious but her expression softening.

"How come you're not public about...you know..." It was hard to meet her eyes, but I felt that the more I was able to normalize talking about her..condition, the more comfortable she'd feel around me.

Blake sighed and set her fork down. She didn't answer me right away and I anxiously waited for her response. After a few more moments, she spoke.

"I...I guess I feel....I-I don't know...." She trailed off, a thoughtful expression adorning her face. 

I didn't say anything, wanting her to continue. "For the longest time, like, ever since my parents learned that I was actually a girl with a penis and not their son, they have pushed my to hide who I am. They never told anyone unless they absolutely had to, and even then, they acted like I was some sick child. They basically trained me to just live a lie and I let myself be manipulated by them." She sounded so angry, and so bitter, that I wanted to find her parents and slap them. How could they do that to their own child?

"In the few times I have ever brought it up, my parents would get mad and me and ignore me for days. I had to basically live for a month at my friends house because I was shunned. The worst part is, I still see my parents on holidays and they act like nothing is wrong and that they never abused their own fucking child. You know they tried to have it cut off when I was born? They wanted to get a sex change done because they wanted a "normal daughter", thank god the doctor told them that it would be my choice to make when I was 18." I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"I'm not ashamed of who I am. Never was, never will be. I may have let them keep me quiet, but I never let their words get to me. I don't hate myself for who I am. Obviously there are times where I wish I was not born like this, but at the end of the day, I know there really isn't anything I can do, and when I was given the opportunity to "fix myself" I didn't take it." 

I thought about Blake words. It made me happy that the blonde woman didn't take the things her parents said to her to heart. I know Blake is not a monster, and as far as 'normal' goes, fuck normal. Normal is boring anyway. 

"Blake, you know there is nothing wrong with you. This changes nothing for me, or us. Our friendship is even stronger because of this. I need you to know that, okay?" I told her firmly, looking directly into her icy blue eyes. I could see them become a bit misty, and all I wanted to do was hold her and kiss her and tell her everything was going to be okay. 

"Thank you, Y/N." She flashed me a small smile then cleared her throat. "Anyway, I never really felt like it was something that needed to be said. Probably because of what my parents did and all that, but I have been thinking about going public. I mean, maybe there is some kid out there like me who feels alone just as I did." I nodded, loving how selfless Blake was about all of this.

She was willing to put her own feelings aside on the off chance that her vulnerability could help someone. 

I had one more question for her, but I wasn't sure if I should ask it. Blake apparently could tell that I wanted to say more.

"What is it Y/N?" She didn't sound mad, more amused. 

I blushed sheepishly, but asked the question anyway. "Does having a penis make it harder to have relations with men?" 

My cheeks flushed red at my own words. Amusement flooded the actresses features. 

"I wouldn't know." It took me a moment to understand what she meant.

And then it dawned on me. My eyes went wide and my mouth fell open. 

"Y-you mean...?" I couldn't even finish the sentence. Blake chuckled at my reaction and nodded.

"I like women Y/N."