The whole thing i think is sic

Important!!: author's notes.

Authors notes:

And that's the end of the whole thing I think is sic, a Corey and Joey fanfiction.

I started it in January, on the 21st, and finished it on May the 25th. Quickest I've ever written I'd say haha.

Also originally this was ment to be Corey x sid but I wasnt feeling it so I changed it up to Joey. And damm I made the right decision because it works so much better and the dynamic is better too.

I'm hope you all enjoyed and thank you for the support through out this book, for all the votes, reads and comments espeically in a short time, it means a lot espeically because I try hard for this book, and I poured a lot in so honestly thank you all for being so kind and interactive.

This book was hard to write haha, I had to keep putting myself in the headspace to get the emotions I wanted and it seemed to have worked and I finally am happy with this book, of course I feel theres a couple lack luster chapters or decisions but I'm really happy how this book turned out.

I really wanted to focus on a book where the ugly side of mental illness was shown and not glamorized. Not knocking other authors but PTSD tends to only be shown in a few ways, for example, them being fine once they find a partner and all symptoms leaving, them being unaffected by trauma yet still having the diagnosis or them never being able to be touched and not changing once they enter a relationship. And the thing is, it's such a misunderstood disorder than I've seen way to romantazied and very misinterpreted. With corey I was trying to show what It was really like, the fact it never just goes away but it's not a personality either. Corey exhibits nightmares, forgetfulness, hyperarousal, suicidal thoughts, triggers, feelings of guilt and shame, irrational impulsive thinking, short temper, not wanting physical contact and the one I think people forget, the feeling of hypersexualness. In the book I tried to show that he wasnt this scared baby who was unfixable, but also someone who didnt just forget as soon as something went good in his life. It's a horrible disorder and it sticks. The examples of how it effected hom being of how we all knew he had friends with benefits, on his terms, where he could relieve that hyper sexualness, but also days where he couldnt cope, it's both sides of the spectrum of the disorder. It's how in real life, I know a lot of people who tell me they have it too because they get sad over the past and that's not what PTSD is. A lot of people seems to think that you dont need to experience the trauma and well, you kind of do. Corey shows how once you are victimized, you will always be, but that doesnt mean he cant love, he may struggle, but we see him adapt to his relationship with Joey.

And I wanted to show the struggles Bipolar as .

I also just wanted to thank yall for keeping respectful, and not criticising anything espeically spelling, I apolgies for any typos, I'm dyslexic so Its not easy to spot.

Now disclaimers:

This book was written with no malice to anyone. Espeically joey and corey. I appreciate they are married with their own lives, and I think they are adorable with their wives. It was written for fun and as a coping mechanism.

I do not ship joey or Corey. It wasnt written as a pro ship book. I am a minor who is not allowed therapy, and I needed a coping mechanism to not wind up dead. I do not ship Corey and joey in real life. I do not think they belong together or ever even did. It is solely fiction and they are only together in this fiction. Its just a story and not made for malice intent or because I think they are or ever were a thing. and it being my hyperfixation makes it hard to write about anything else.

You may ask? why not keep it private? Because I want to help anyone else in the same situation know they are normal.

Harassing people over ships is not cool. And yes I get shipping real people is weird. I do not ship them. 100% fiction. Just the healthiest coping mechanism I have right now.

Okay so.

Not everything is true to Corey's life or Joey's life though parts are taken from interviews books or songs or my experiences.

A lot of the detail I talked about when dwevelling into coreys trauma are more than likely not true, he hasnt gone into much detail from what I've seen so far, but please remain respectful because those where based off my own personal experiences, and as said I was using this book kind of as a coping mechanism lmao.

Again the age may not be correct for certain things. And the name Jason, comes from him book, as does corky. They arent the actual names of these people, but ones he chose to name these people. But as also stated, I tried to respectfully base a lot of it off their persons and what was true to them without trying to romanticize anything. Also I recommend reading the seven deadly sins and watching the therapist if you wanna hear Corey talk about his actual experiences.

I apolgies for Joey being a weaker character, it was much easier to write for Corey because I feel like I relate to him more.

And if anything triggered you, or you are going through anything you need to talk about, Please, please please dm me on here and I'll try be here for you or google your countries hot line.

But uh thanks for reading. :)

Maybe I'll start a new slipknot book. Who knows?

Anyway, I really hope you enjoyed this book. I'm sad to see it over but please if you want to let me know what you thought, dont hesitate to tell me.

Any who.

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Gee xxxx