I woke up by the sound of the teachers who are telling us to get ready because we were leaving i was still in marks room naked
"shit"
"mark" i called his name but he wont wake up
"markk, wake up we need to go" He's still sleeping, i sighed and pecked his lips and finally he woke up while smiling
"ok baby" he got up and put on his clothes
"umm mark, i left my clothes" he stared at me for a while and laughed, i giggled in embarrasment because of what happend
"i'll let you wear my hoodie, its big enough to cover you until your tighs" mark suggested.
"thanks" i smiled at him while wearing his hoodie.
After that i went to my room leaving him checking his stuffs, thank god i already packed everything so i just had to wear my bra and underwear and pants
After putting on my clothes i tied my hair into a high ponytail and wore my glasses but it was a different one it was the round harry potter looking glasses.
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We all went outside the hotel and the staffs started counting us one by one to see if there was anyone left out, i was on my phone with earphones on listening to ariana grande all of a sudden someone tapped my shoulder from the back so i turned around almost bumping him
"woah careful"
that voice...it was johnny's...
"uh whats up?" we stared at each other for a good one minute and he shooked his head
"you um left this" he gave me my doll i was tensed, surprised, but relieved i didnt lost it because it was like my childhood friend who always accompanied me to bed
"i- thank you so much!" i grabbed it and hugged it almost tearing up knowing that i couldve lost it
"no problemo" he left to the first bus while i was on the second one, i got in the bus trying to find where to sit then i saw mark waving his hands smiling to me so of course i smiled back and went to sit down next to him
"i thought you were gonna be on the first bus"
mark pursed his lips and looked at me "i cant stand johnny and the girl who annoys tf out of everyone making out and i just found out that you were here"
i smiled while holding his hands and leaning my head to his shoulder, it was a 4 hours ride and we've been only going on for an hour i got sleepy so i slept...
it was dark... wait no, i was at the bathroom... crying... there was a picture of me and my friends when i was at middle school... the friends that i thought who wouldnt leave me because of a stupid rumor... they bullied me ever since that rumor came out and i kept telling them its not true but they just shut me up by slapping me... punching me... kicking me til' i bleed... i was writing a note...saying "thank you for all the people that has been there for me but this is it, im sorry, goodbye..." then i burned the picture of me and my friends, i went to the bathtub which was full with water and white rose pedals and stayed there for a while, i didnt felt anything but pain and heard screams in my head i wanted to stop but it didnt and it wont.. so i cried and grabbed the cutter i bought slowly slicing my wrist... Blood was everywhere, the cut was long but it wasnt deep enough so i took a deep breath and was about to cut my wrist again til' a bang came from the door...my sisters came in shocked, kiyo was wiping the blood off and minni was locking the bathroom door not wanting to scare our parents away...
"y/n!"
"hey! y/n are you okay?!"
"baby! Wake up!"
i woke up panting and sobbing.... it was my nightmare again... i took the pills...why didnt it stopped? I kept panting and then realizing that my hands were bleeding a little, everyone from the back of the bus looked at me worried i just kept sobbing and sobbing and it turned to cries
Mark held my hands and wiped the blood off he was hugging me trying to calm me down, the girls beside me also tried to make me calm by rubbing my back and everyone was saying that everything going to be okay...
i never thought the people around me would actually be this nice... i feel bad for not being friends with most of them
After a while i was out of tears but was still sobbing a little everyone went back to their seats and did their own business mark was still holding me kissing my head "w-what happend?" i asked mark
he sighed while answering "you were asleep on my shoulders but then i felt hot water on it i thought you were drooling which is totally fine but it was hot so i checked on you and you crying you were saying no a lot like someone was about to kill you and then you started to scratc your hands really bad, everyone was calling out your name trying to wake you up so i screamed to wake you up"
i was shocked at his answer and looked at my hands they were red thank god it was my right arm if it wouldve been the left one everyone was gonna see my scars...
i held marks hand really tight "im sorry...it was another nightmare" he slightly smiled and hugged me closer while rubbing my hands.
The whole ride after that became a mess everyone was literally partying and dancing to the songs that was turned on by the driver, mark was with haechan laughing around so i was left alone in the corner watching the scenery of the sunset from the window smiling because of how beautiful it is...little did i know...something bad happend...
⋆✩⋆──┅┅┄┄*ೃ:.✧✲ﾟ*｡⋆─── ⋆✩⋆ Ohhh what do you think will happen to her? Anyways i wanted to tell you guys that this book might be either too short or too long hehe
