I am looking down right now
I'm at my favorite spot
You know,
The one by the ocean
Except this time there are sharks there.
Should I? Should I not?
I don't know.
Things are just not the same anymore.
Anxiety holds me hostage inside my head
While depression makes me want to go into bed
But this?
This I just can't take no more.
No-one getting it!
No-one understanding!
What am I supposed to do, hmm?
You want me to not jump, right?
Well I don't care
I just want to fall
Nobody will care....
Nobody will love....
Instead they put on these expectations
What do you want from me?
I do everything!
I appreciate you
I appreciate all my surrounding!
What else is there to do?
Nothing is ever good enough
But you want to know what is?
This ocean...
It appreciates me, you know?
It's calling towards me.
Whispering
Jump...
Telling me
I can make you feel good enough.
Strong.
But should I even listen?
God?
Why am I so indecisive?
Why aren't you here to stop me?
Why are my legs moving?
Please...
God
Please...
Save me
Please,
I don't want to feel tired anymore
But how can I not when it's my parents
It's the people at my school?
I'm at my favorite spot
But now...
It doesn't seem to be my favorite anymore
It's just an empty shell
With no more sharks
And I'm not going back anymore
I'm so sorry...
Please,
Forgive me
I just don't want to feel this pain no-more.
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Obstacles
PoezjaObstacles is a collections of poems set in a order that tells a story about about how and what I went through during my freshman year all the way up to my senior year of high school. It has the sole purpose to inspire, explain, understand, and to be...
