You know,
Sometimes people come up to me
And they ask
"How are you?
How was your day?"
And I say
I'm fine
That everything is okay
That everything is great
So just go ahead
Go on about your day
But
That's not what I really want to say
What I really want to say is:
I'm not okay
That I'm not okay
I'm drowning
I'm drowning
And I am seeing life right in front of me
It pass me by
Day by day
And I keep missing out on things that could be great
Because life hates me
Life...
Hates me
It leaves me in the pit of darkness
Making me think
It makes me think
That no-one really cares
That no-one really likes me
That no-one truly do respect me
That I am not good enough
That I am not strong enough
That I'm weak
It keeps making me think
Thinking these vicious thoughts
And thinking hurts
It hurts me
And that
That makes me tired
So tired that I can't sleep
That I can't get out of bed
Because I'm drowning
I'm drowning
And I'm seeing life right in front of me
Seeing everyone breathing
Why can't I have that?
Why must it always be me
The one who suffers
The one who has to be alone
Or the one who feels lonely?
But I can't say that
I can't tell them that
Because my anxiety will never allow me to
It holds me back
Makes me doubt
Makes me run
And keep things I want to say
Away from me
Because again
I can't say that
Because no-one will understand
No-one really wants to understand
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Obstacles
PuisiObstacles is a collections of poems set in a order that tells a story about about how and what I went through during my freshman year all the way up to my senior year of high school. It has the sole purpose to inspire, explain, understand, and to be...
