my euphoria. rosekook

ch 27

CHAPTER 27:

park rosé's point of view

"congratulations!"

i was wearing a white dress and i'm in the middle of a lot of people. it's graduation day again today. jimin oppa and joy eonnie insisted that we'd come because seulgi eonnie and wendy eonnie is graduating today, so is yoongi oppa, namjoon oppa, and hoseok oppa. and then there's iu eonnie as well.

but there are a lot of people right now that i couldn't breathe too well.

i excused myself from my siblings and decided to went out and get some fresh air. i sat in one of the bench.

i thought i would be alone there but surprisingly, i saw a familiar face.

it was yeri.

she's sitting in a bench beside me.

we met gazes and she smiled at me. i smiled back as well. i'm becoming more used to smiling at people because of my so called mission. and hopefully, i'm making a difference because of that.

"chaeyoung eonnie." she greeted me and sat beside me.

"hi, uhm, yeri."

"what are you doing outside here?" she asked.

"uh, i felt suffocated being surrounded by a lot of people haha," i tried to laugh it off, "uhm, you?"

"maybe we have the same, eonnie." she smiled. she's really pretty. there's no doubt that she's taeyeon eonnie and taehyung oppa's sibling.

"maybe?"

she suddenly pouted, "it's just that, i'm kinda upset, you know? i don't like the idea of people leaving. why do people have to leave anyway?" then she looked at me, "i'm probably not making any sense, don't i?"

i shook my head, "it's okay. go ahead. rant away. i'll listen."

she giggled, "you really are a sister of jimin oppa. joy eonnie and jihoonie? i'm not so sure. you and jimin oppa are soft and then joy eonnie and jihoon are tough. but yeah, i guess we all are different, huh?"

she's a great speaker. she says what she wants to say and she elaborate it well. hmm, i want to be like that too. not some shy and anxious girl who can't say shit.

"anyway, chaeyoung eonnie. you don't have to worry about me. i'm just not the biggest fan of people leaving."

"what do you mean?"

"you see, irene eonnie, seulgi eonnie, wendy eonnie, joy eonnie and i are the closest friends. last year, irene eonnie had to leave and now this year, it was seulgi eonnie and wendy eonnie. soon, it will be joy eonnie too. and then i'll be left alone. i don't want to be left alone." she pouted as she say her problem, i just listen at her.

and then she laughed, "my problem's kinda petty, right? i'm so stupid for feeling like this, right?"

"no. not at all. you feel that way and that's okay. you shouldn't blame yourself for what you feel. if you feel it, you feel it." i smiled at her, "and don't worry, it's normal to feel like that. no one likes to be left out but if you think about it, they're not really leaving you. they're just moving forward because their time here is already done. but that doesn't mean they're gonna leave you. you'll still and will always be their friend."

phew, i think i spoke too much. hopefully, yeri don't find me too talkative.

but instead, she smiled at me.

"thank you, chaeyoung eonnie, you really made me feel better. you're a really nice person."

"uh, you're welcome." i smiled back at her. "and no, i'm not. i'm just like you, you know. i get upset about people leaving too. but then i thought, maybe just like them, i need to keep moving forward as well. i can't be stuck here forever. i need to keep up."