BAD LOVE - English Version

16. I will never leave you

Anjali's POV

Sid continued with his doctor's appointments regularly. But the constant negative results made him more and more angry and frustrated until he reached for the bottle. At some point it became too much for me with his drinking. One day, he hurried to our bar after he came back from his appointment and I went after him. Angrily, he took a bottle from the vitrine/glass cabinet and drank almost all the whiskey at once. I ran up to him and tried to take the bottle away.

"It is enough, please. Too much alcohol is not good for you."

But he took it away from me.

"Let me!" He said and continued to drink.

"Please, Sid. Listen to me. This will make your results even worse, so give me the bottle."

This time I pulled with full force and he finally let go.

"SHUT UP!"   He shouted.

But before I heard him, I felt a hard slap in the face, which catapulted me to the couch and the alcohol against the wall. I looked at him in shock and held my burning cheek. Did he really just hit me? He hesitated for a moment, then he realized what he had done and came towards me.

Siddarth's POV

"Oh my God. I'm sorry. I didn't want to hit you." I said, leaning down to her.

She looked at me anxiously and when I tried to touch her, she quickly raised her hands in front of her face as if I were going to hit her again.

"No, please don't hurt me!" She pleaded and fled to the corner.

"Anjali, please, believe me. I didn't want to hurt you. I'm sorry."

Carefully I tried to get closer to her, to grab her shoulder, but she shook my hand off.

"No, leave me alone. Go away." She screamed and took a few steps back.

"Anjali, it's me, Siddarth. Your Sid. You don't have to be afraid of me."

But she was afraid and even trembled. What have I done? I hurt her. For the first time I slapped her. She, Anjali, my wife, the woman I loved most. I had promised her I would change, to become the old Sid again. But now she was standing in front of me, scared and looking at me like I was a monster. I couldn't take it anymore and burst into tears.

"I love you. I really love you. But I just can't deal with this situation. Damn it. I'm afraid to lose you Anjali and I try to improve every day. But everytime I try to do the right thing, I fail. I'm failing. I can't make it. I'm sorry."

I lowered my head and dropped to my knees. Then I felt her put her hand on my head and slide her fingers through my hair. I took her hand and kissed her palm. Slowly she knelt down to me and looked at me with sad eyes.

"I'm terribly sorry." I sobbed.

Gently she stroked my lips with her thumb and shook her head lightly.

"Please, don't leave me, Anjali."

She hugged me and answered.

"Don't worry. I will never leave you."

Anjali's POV

Today I visited the orphanage and talked to Sister Mary about a special topic. I was so happy and couldn't wait to get home and talk to Siddarth about it. Happily I opened the front door and looked for him in the house. As always, I found him in his study room. He stood thoughtfully at the window and looked outside.