(SLOW UPDATES) A Memoir to the Memory [Kylo Ren x Reader]

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"No, I'm sorry. But we can't make this work." You said solemly. You folded your hands as you pressed your lips tightly together into a straight line. He looked at you, shock nearly expressed on his face.

"The Supreme Leader won't make this work... Or you won't make this work... Your highness?"

The leader of the Black Sun. A cult like orginazation that has been in the hiding for many decades but had recently been thriving. However, you knew giving them any sort of power could turn tides worse for the First Order.

You didn't change your expression. You knew he was trying to get under your skin, but you wouldn't let him have any power over you. "The First Order will not make it work. Our efforts are to the war, we have no time to fund a silly organization that believes it will solve the crime in the galaxy. That is what this order is for, and that is what the Guild already offers." You said and the man slammed his fist onto the table, cracking the glass slightly.

"It is NOT a silly organization. I will make you a final deal." He growled as he slid over his holopad after typing a few things onto it. Another deal had approached but you already knew your answer.

"No, Mr. Barrmet. We are not doing any deals or funding to your organization." You said as you slid the holopad back to it's rightful owner. He was fuming at this point. "You will regret this." He huffed and you raised an eyebrow as he stood. "Is that a threat?" You asked but he simply stormed out.

You stood and straightened your uniform. You were not ready to let some lunatic waltz in and pretend he could end your world in a minute. No one could, except for Kylo. But you knew never in an infininte amount of lifetimes would he ever harm you.

And to de-stress you went to see him. You could feel he was in the shared chambers you had. You walked in to see him sitting at the table reading something on his holopad. He seemed stressed. You placed your hands on his shoulders, he loosened a little, sensing your presence.

"Relax, my love. What has you so worried?" You asked as he stood and turned around. His honey brown eyes scanned over you and a smile of pride found his lips. "Nothing my queen, just business as usual." He says with a soft sigh passing through his lips. Kylo put his hands on either side of your waist. "I think we're both stressed. How did the meeting go?" He asked as he raised an eyebrow.

"We're not doing a deal with the Black Sun. I did enough research and I know after using our resources and gaining more power they'd attempt to damage the First Order." You said and Kylo nodded with a smile. "You've grown very wise my beautiful wife." He said as he leaned down to kiss you.

You smiled slightly as you kissed him. But you pulled away slowly. "And your work? Care to tell me what's going on?" You asked and Kylo didn't look you in the eyes. He just rubbed your shoulders soothingly. "Well, if the deal doesn't go well with the planet Utapau, we'll be losing lots of resources and people. That planet will mean a lot to this Order, as well as it's whole system." He said and you furrowed your eyebrows. "And we can't blockade, they're vocal. Like Coruscant. But if we don't the Resistance will get to them." You said, understanding his stress more.

Kylo nodded with a frustraited sigh. "Yes, but perhaps I do a more silent blockade. One on the ground, not visible in space." He said and you shook your head. "No send me. Let me convince their commitee. You know im the best at what I do." You said with a plea. Kylo shook his head. "No. I don't want you getting hurt by terrorists, or vanishing or-" He said but you stopped him by putting a hand to one side of his face.

"My love, you know I can take care of myself plus you know I'll have a part of the royal guards with me not to mention the many storm troopers that will be stationed on my mission. Please Kylo. I want to do this for the Order. For you." You begged and Kylo looked at you worriedly, but lovingly.

He closed his eyes, he could never say no to the puppy eyes you always gave him. But your touch made him give in regardless if he could see your beautiful eyes or not.

"Alright fine. But you can only be there for two rotations. No more. Come home early if you'd like." He said and you smiled. "Oh thank you!" You said as you hugged him tightly.

As you pulled away a new look was lingering in his eyes. "But for now." He began as he wrapped one arm around your waist and the other on the side of your face. "I think we both have enough free time to... Spend some time together." He said and you chuckled as you nodded. "Yes I think it's overdue we spend some quality time together." You said and Kylo grinned widely as he picked you up and then tossed you onto the bed.

Oh what a night it would be.