(SLOW UPDATES) A Memoir to the Memory [Kylo Ren x Reader]

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You gave a soft smile to Kylo. "I love you too. I'll return soon. With my negotiating abilities it shouldn't take long." You smiled and Kylo nodded with a slight chuckle. "Good luck darling." He said before the transmission ended.

The blast door then opened behind you and you heard a pair of footsteps and felt a nervous presence. "My lady, we've arrived." You heard a woman say and you turned around and nodded, acknowledging her statement.

You followed her out of the room and off of the ramp of the transport. A line of first order troopers narrowed your path after the ramp until you were then greeted by the senator of Utapau. You smiled politely.

"Senator. I thank you for welcoming me onto your glorious planet." You greeted as you and him both bowed. "Queen, we are welcome to have you any time. Please follow me, and I will show you to your chambers where you may settle before the meeting tonight." He said as he gestured forward and you followed.

The day wasn't eventful, politics usually weren't very eventful but you always had a way with convincing, and that wasn't because you were a force weilder, it had just come natural to you. Your way of words, your body language. You were enticing and polite. And Kylo was grateful to have you by his side. He didn't know what he would have done without you, he even guesses he could have been seduced to the light side of the Force. But he chose his side long after Rey denied joining forces with him, and killing Palpatine. And he still chose you.

Kylo Ren, the Supreme Leader of the First Order, couldn't imagine what life would be like without you.

"And how did the meeting go?" Kylo asked and you nodded. "It went well. There are still some things needed to be worked out such as funding, transportation of goods, and setting up a base. But I believe the deal will be accepted." You said and Kylo smiled brightly.

"You never cease to amaze me my love." He said and you smiled. "I can't wait to get home and see you again." You replied and Kylo nodded. "I'll be debarking on a mission not too soon after you return, in about a week's time but I wanted you to know ahead of time." He informed you and you raised an eyebrow.

"What sort of mission?" You asked, intrigued as he didn't go on missions as often anymore. "One where I will search for artifacts of the Sith. But it won't take me long, most likely a day or two." He said and you nodded. "Well I'll let you get some rest. I know you have a lot of work to do." He said and you smiled. "Goodnight." You said to which he repeated the same word before you both ended the transmission.

You missed him so much. Your love now light years away from you. You sighed as you lied down in the guest bed, already missing your husband.

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You were awoken to movement. You pried your eyes open sleepily to see that you were in a shuttle. Not a First Order one at that. And you were bound to a metal chair.

"The hell..." You muttered as you looked around, completely confused. You opened your hand to use the force, to unlock you from the chair but you recieved an electric shock instead of opening the cuffs.

You screamed at the sudden pain, of which a holo transmission turned on in front of you. "Queen of the First Order. Supreme Leader Kylo Ren's wife. How tragic things had to end so poorly." It was the Black Sun leader, Flick Barrmet. You growled. "What the hell is this? Where am I going?" You asked and he shook his head, a devious smile on his face.

"You're returning home, your highness. And I sent a gift along with it." He said, and as if on cue a probe with a needle entered, blue liquid filling it. "What is that?" You asked, your nerves getting to you as you clentched your fists.

"Well, I thought that to relieve some stress on your journey home, it would be a good idea to give you some medicine. In which, this medicine will bind your memories of our galaxy and lock them away, suppressing them so far down into your mind that you will never remember them, or that any of this would even exist." He said, gritting his teeth. You tried getting out of the chair, wanting to stand up, wanting to move to shake off some of the adreniline that was starting to make you sick.

"You're lying, Kylo getting to Earth was an accident, and returning was a miracle. I can't get to Earth even if I wanted to." You shot back and the Flick laughed. "Oh but you can my highness! You see, little do you know I used to work for the First Order, and when your ship returned, I was able to download all data files on your trip to your homeworld. It's no use for us to overthrow it because of it's distance from our home. But I thought awhile after our conversation the other day. And I think it's best to get rid of you right back to where you came from." He said, and suddenly a silent 'ding' came from the cabin of the ship. "That's your cue! Good luck, and have a wonderful life." He said, the transmission ended.

"No- No no no!" You began to scream as the probe neared you. You backed away as best as you could but it just kept coming even when you could no longer move away. The needle injected itself into your neck and you squeezed your eyes shut in pain, powerless as to do anything.

You felt the syrum enter your body, at first it was icy cold but then it began to burn. You screamed from the pain you were feeling in your head, so much so you were able to use the force, shattering the capsule of which the syrum was held in, dropping the last bits of the blue fluid to the ground. Your restraints broke off from the metal chair and you immediately swung your fist at the probe droid, breaking it immediately.

You grabbed the needle and pulled it out of your neck, feeling blood begin to run down your neck.

You felt so sick you could barely walk. But you had to turn this ship around. However, when you got to the cockpit of the ship you saw that you were in hyperspace. As if on cue you exited hyperspace and there you saw your homeworld. As beautiful as you remember it.

You wasted no time getting in the pilot's seat and trying to revert the controls, but it had been modified so you had no control over the ship. You buckled up, the Earth was nearing faster and faster.

You looked down at the controls, maybe you could wire it somehow. But as you looked, you didn't recognize some of the buttons and switches as you did moments ago. The medication was already working. Wiping your memory of what is outside of your homeworld. When you glanced up again, you were in the atmosphere. The ship was shaking wildly and flames had erupted around the edges of the window.

Before you knew it, you hit the ground.