(SLOW UPDATES) A Memoir to the Memory [Kylo Ren x Reader]

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"Alright, there you are. And if you need anything you press this button." The nurse said as she smiled and you thanked her. You took a sip of your water as you sat in your quiet hospital room, being empty after the nurse had left.

You were going to watch some TV but you felt a cold breeze come from your left and you turned to see a tall dark figure standing there. Your eyes widened but before you could even move or make a noise it spoke up.

"Y/N. Where are you? What happened?" He asked, he had a very deep and robotic voice. You screamed in fear and a moment later the door to your room opened, it was the nurse and she was by your side instantly. "What is it Y/N? What happened?" She asked worriedly  and when you pointed at the area in the room where the demon like figure stood, it was gone. You had your arms wrapped around the nurse, clinging for dear life.

"There- there was someone there! Standing right there!" You exclaimed, your whole body shaking in fear. "It's okay, you're okay. Nobody is here." The nurse said, trying to comfort you.

You cried, not only because you were scared but because you were so confused. Now you were hallucinating? Why?

The nurse comforted you until you eventually fell asleep.

The next day, one of the nurses informed you that your family was on the way to the hospital you were staying at. You were nervous but excited. It felt like you'd seen them just yesterday. But for them it had been 5 years.

Your parents came in first, tears of joy immediately filled their eyes just at the sight of you. They both carefully hugged you. "We've missed you so much, we were so worried you'd never come home." Your mom said as she wiped her cheeks which had tears streaming down them. "I can't believe Marie is still missing, even after she went up to the cabin and then came home again." Your younger sibling reminded you.

Suddenly a flash of a memory came to your mind.

"Wait! Y/N please let me go with you." Marie said, she grabbed your arm. You looked at her and- it was that tall dark figure again who you looked at. You turned to Marie. "Marie, your life is here. Not out there." You said, but Marie shook her head. "My life is with you Y/N, with my sister, my true family. Y/N I don't think I could live a life where you weren't in it. Please." Marie begged, her grip on you tightened.

The memory ended. You sat quietly for a moment before your mother spoke up. "Y/N? Are you okay?" She asked and you looked up at her. "Y-Yeah I'm okay." You reassured her and she smiled at you worriedly. "We should let you get some rest. We'll come back tomorrow though. We have a hotel room not too far from the hospital." Your mom said and you nodded.

You said your goodbyes and were soon left alone again.

Then there was a cold chill to your left. You immediately turned your head and there was the dark figure. "Please don't scream again." He said and you gulped. "A-Are you real?" You asked quietly and he stood silently for a moment, as if confused by your question. "I'm real... Y/N what happened to you..?" He asked and you looked at him confused. "Do you know where Marie is?" You asked and he nodded slowly. "Of course I do. She is with us. Where are you?" He asked but you were cut off by the door on your right opening. It was the nurse, bringing you dinner.

You looked back at the wall to your left but the man was gone again.

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Kylo being miserable about your disapperance was an understatement. When you hadn't been found within the hour he immediately sent out search parties and even went himself along with Marie. He hadn't slept since you left and decided to put off his mission.

But then he was able to reconnect with you through the Force and... You didn't know who he was. His own wife, not knowing who he was. Not to mention the bruises on your face and the sitches on your head scared him to death. What had happened to you? Were you being held captive? Did you even remember anything about him? He knew you at least remembered Marie which relieved him slightly. But why not him?

He was frustraited, not at you but at the fact that he didn't know what happened and he didn't know how to help you. When the second connection had been cut by a disturbance wherever you were he clenched his fists and punched the metal wall of his room, leaving an indent.

He immediately grabbed his transmitter and put in Marie's contact. Which she wasted no time answering. "Kylo?" She asked and he sighed. "I saw her again. I got to talk to her for a little while." He said, on the verge of tears. "What did she say?" Marie asked, impatiently waiting his response.

"She- She doesn't remember me..." Kylo said, holding back a sob that just wanted to erupt from his throat. "But she remembers you Marie, she asked where you were." He said and Marie cupped a hand over her mouth, muffling sobs. "She still had bruises on her face, and the stitches on her head. She asked if I was even real." Kylo said, his words getting quieter as each word just defeated him more and more. "I need to meditate.. I will update you if anything happens." Kylo said, feeling the lump in his throat increase as he then ended the transmission. He couldn't help it, he let out a choked sob and defeatedly sat down on the bed he once shared with you.

He kept his head in his hands as he silently cried, wishing you were there to comfort him.