Flowers From You

chapter eleven

Hadyn.

"Hi", she bade.

I held my breath for I don't know-seconds while I'm staring at her sparkling azure blue eyes. The sight of her is a dream for me, I felt like I'm in a dream with her before me.

I couldn't hold up the desire to hug her so I did it. I pulled her against my chest and wrapped my arms around her tight.

"I missed you", I expressed, "... so much".

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Amoret.

When I ascended my way to my room, I halted as I saw my mother slept on my bed. The view of her makes me sigh.

I know that whenever she's here in the house, I don't welcome her that well or cook food for her unlike before when everything was great. I know that I hate her and her mistakes, but I also know that deep inside I love her as a daughter. Though, I coated it up and concealed it, because she made me do it.

It irks me that every damn time she was here, she brings out enormous bag of memories from the past which makes me go through a ride from a roller coaster. I feel angry and at the same time guilty.

It's hard to depict what I'm really feeling towards her, but overall, I conclude, its contempt.

I picked my phone from the bedside table, under my velvet table lamp. I checked first my mother if she's awake, I suddenly thought that it's not a great place to call a stranger especially in front of my mother.

I exited the area then headed my way to the living room.

I raised my hand to see the card clearly with the Payton's phone number imprinted on it. I hesitate. Is this actually the right bestowed time to break my oath to myself? I blew out air from my cheeks.

At his first impression and the way he acted upon me, I guess Payton won't drag out trouble, right? Perhaps, he made me feel comfortable around him, or a little.

Oh, comfortable? Really, Amoret? Let me remind you that what you feel with him is like you already completed all the rides from an amusement park. What would be the next? You're going to feel like you finished all the rides in all the amusement parks in the world?!

Oh, the bitch talked.

My goodness, please, I'm pointing this out for you and your gorgeous dead body. In case, you've gotten another trap like your ex, Ga-

Shush lady! I thought we already had an agreement to not to mention that devil's name.

Yeah, I KNOooOOWW, just reminding.

Right. My mind's really a kind of bitch.

Still, I glanced to the card and recall all the time that I had with him. Maybe I get some or often odd feelings around him like what I felt before. But, I look to where my mother sleeping and divert my eyes from it, those sad memories unexpectedly flew inside my mind. I want to escape from it, I want to run away from it, it's my thing, you know?

I'll only do this once, I just need to spare time with someone to shun away all these hatred and darkness I felt inside.

I badly wish it was Hadyn, but no, he went to another person.

It's okay, I know he won't avoid me or break our friendship because of his lover. I doubt it'll happen.

Back to reality, where was I?

Oh, yes, I'm going to dial Payton's number. As I click through the screen, my mind has been reluctant to think if I am making a good decision, otherwise I'm facing a heck of a drama or I'm just exaggerating this much?