Josh Dun x Reader

Hear Me Now

Warnings: Angst, implied panic attack, aggressive behavior (throwing/kicking objects)

Word Count: 1519

Request: can you write rcb but where the reader chooses josh? & angst

Author's Note: This is another "what if" from the Rose Colored Boy series! I really enjoy writing these and see what other directions the story could have gone in. Also, I'm sorry for all the angst :( I hope you enjoy it!

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Tyler's POV

"On three, I'm getting out of the car," I muttered.

One.

My hands were gripping the steering wheel so tight that my knuckles had nearly turned white. I loosened my grip and flexed my fingers, trying to get some of the blood to return to them.

Two.

I pulled the keys out of the ignition and stuffed them into my pocket. The song that was playing on my CD slowly faded out.

Three.

I pushed open the car door and planted my feet on the pavement. My head started to spin, so I put one hand on the roof of the car to steady myself until colors stopped flashing in front of my eyes. Note to self: get out of the car slower next time.

I shut the car door behind me and slowly started the walk up the front steps. Y/N had mentioned her parents were out of town for a few days, so at least I wouldn't have to worry about the possibility of having to explain to them why I was showing up unannounced.

My knock on the door was met with silence. It took me a moment to put two and two together: I was showing up unannounced and Y/N was home alone. Of course she wasn't going to answer the door.

Tyler: Hey, it's just me at the door. Sorry if I scared you.

Footsteps came down the stairs almost immediately, and it wasn't long before Y/N was opening the door. She seemed confused to see me, but I couldn't do anything but smile at her.

"Tyler," she said, "I didn't realize you were stopping by."

"Hi. Sorry for the short notice, it was sort of a last minute decision."

"Are you here to pick up your clothes?"

I had completely forgotten about that.

"No, actually. I mean, yes, I'll take them, but that's not what I came for."

"Then what did you come for?" she asked, the confusion on her face more evident now.

"Can we... can we go on a walk? There's something that I need to talk to you about."

"Oh, I, um, I'm actually kind of busy right now."

My heart started to beat harder in my chest. I needed her to say yes to this walk. If she didn't, I wasn't so sure that I would get the courage to tell her again.

"Please, it's really important. Just five minutes, that's all I need."

"Ty, I would love to, but it's really not a good time."

"Five minutes."

"I'm just going to go grab your clothes for you. I'm sorry."

Y/N turned and started to walk up the stairs. My heart was beating so fast that for a second I thought I might pass out. The words were right on the tip of my tongue, begging to be let out...