Josh Dun x Reader

Interview

Warnings: Some angst

Word Count: 889

You watched Josh carefully as he answered another one of the interviewer's questions. You recognized the interviewer: a tall blonde that seemed to be at every festival or event that the boys played. Her flirting was evident, the way she leaned in or gently touched his arm. It was hard to watch, but I knew Josh would be upset if I didn't.

You fought back the nauseous feeling in your stomach as the interview continued. Your eyes were on every move Josh made in return: the path his eyes followed or how he smiled. You knew it was dumb and you were only making things harder on yourself, but you couldn't help it.

It wasn't until the interviewer fully wrapped her arm around Josh that you couldn't take it anymore. You quickly shut your laptop and shoved it onto the coffee table in front of you. Tears were freely falling from your eyes now, and you pulled your knees up to your chest, wrapping your arms tightly around them.

You were still a sniffling mess when Josh returned home an hour later. He closed the door gently behind him, obviously believing you had fallen asleep on the couch. You tried to stay quiet, but just knowing that he was in the house sent a fresh wave of tears.

"Y/N?" Josh asked.

There was the sound of him setting his stuff on the ground followed closely by his footsteps crossing the living room.

"Are you ok?"

You sat up and pulled your legs closer to you, leaving him room to sit on the couch. Worry was etched onto his face, and you slowly shook your head. There was no point in lying to him.

"What's wrong?"

You opened your mouth to say something, but your voice was thick and the words that you so desperately wanted to say wouldn't come out.

"It's nothing, just some stupid problem that I'm having," you mumbled, wiping away an escaped tear.

"If you're sitting here crying about it, it obviously isn't some stupid problem," he said, sitting down on the other side of the couch.

His voice was so quiet and concerned. You pulled your knees back up to your chest and rested your forehead on them. Looking at him only made you feel worse.

"Y/N, please, I'm worried about you."

You shook your head. Every part of you wanted to tell him about how you felt, but there was no way he would feel the same and it would ruin everything.

"I...I can't tell you."

"Why not?"

"It's too embarrassing."

He reached out and grabbed one of your hands, "Will you look at me for a second?"

You sniffled and lifted your head up to look at him. He was staring directly at you.

"Nothing you ever say to me will ever make me think less of you, ok? I don't want you to ever be embarrassed of anything you say to me."

You bit down on your lip. Josh was still holding on tightly to your hand, his eyes never leaving mine. Your heart started pounding at the prospect of what you were about to do.

"I'm in love with you, Josh"

His face immediately changed, his eyes growing wide. He leaned back slightly.

You started talking again, trying to fill the silence he had created, "And I know things are going to be awkward now because we live together and you don't feel the same but after watching you with that interviewer, I just couldn't take it anymore. I tried to watch the interview but I got so jealous whenever she put a hand on you and I couldn't bear to watch that anymore. I should have told you how I felt a long time ago but I was so afraid of ruining what we already had that I didn't but I can't hold it anymore, Josh, I really can't."

Tears started flowing out of your eyes and you quickly buried your face again, pulling your hand away from Josh's. You wanted to sink through the floor and disappear forever, but instead you were stuck on the couch, facing the guy that you had just confessed your love to.

"Please don't cry, Y/N," Josh said, reaching out and placing a hand on your knee.

You wrapped your arms more tightly around your legs.

"Will you look at me again?"

You lifted your head up, making sure just your eyes were visible.

"I don't love her," he started.

The knot in your stomach lessened slightly, at least that was one thing you didn't have to worry about.

"I love you."

Butterflies immediately erupted in your stomach and you felt your breath catch.

"You do?"

He nodded. You couldn't help the smile that spread across your face. Immediately, you got up and reached over, crashing into him as you attempted to hug him. He wrapped his arms tightly around you, holding you close.

"I should have told you a long time ago," you whispered.

"I could say the same," Josh responded.

You leaned back for a second to look at him, which he quickly took as an opportunity to pull you into a kiss.

"I love you, Josh Dun," you smiled, burying your head in his chest once again.

"I love you too, Y/F/N Y/L/N."