As I stand here in the distance I watch you walk away, I choke back all my tears and the things I want to say, as I am here in the silence trying to stand up off my knees all I can do is think of all the things that I want to scream, i try but fail my lungs refuse to work, I had never known it's possible to be this hurt, I always made promises that I never kept, you slipped away slowly on those nights I never slept, I had always been told you would leave first, you would go and to lose you would be by far the worst, I can always lie to them and say I regret these things truly that I've changed, i can even try to say this to you but you always see straight through me, I've been told I'd regret losing you more than anyone else and I never believed it but now I know it's the worst pain in the world losing yourself
