So I'm just gonna say that I know this is more a published personal journal than anything but I appreciate that someone is reading it I know I'm whiny and utterly ridiculous most of the time but I do really want to get better at being tolerable, so thank you for reading this and even more thanks for not insulting my whiny self hating pathetic excuse for a writer self. For the past month I've been planning my escape from the place I've only ever considered to be a prison, a dark cold ugly old soul crushing mind numbing heart consuming hell patch on earth with sir bastard as the warden, this place has slowly destroyed my mind and soul over the course of my life and I hate it but I'm getting out later this evening <technically it's tomorrow morning because I'm leaving in the am) to be honest I'm scared as hell and I'm pretty sure I'll be drunk later to deal with the stress <I'm taking rum and whisky) but it's so worth it, this place and it's residents have slowly broken me down and chipped away at everything I am since I was born but I've learned they can't be fixed so I'm gonna fix myself and I figured I could do that if I get some time away so I'm hitting the road tonight!
