A Youtubers Uni

(Warning! Depressing)

*Phil's POV*

I stormed out the gates of the school, not caring about anything but her.

I quickened my paced so a walk became a fast walk, a fast walk became a jog, until finally I couldn't bare it anymore, I began to run, run like I've never ran in my life.

I guess the reason I didn't stop was because I had something to do. To take all my anger out on.

Finally I got to Me and Dan's flat. I fumbled for the keys in my bag before unlocking the door and barging through.

I tried to tell myself no as I approached the glass bathroom door.

'No' I thought 'I can't let this happen again, not again'

But as I tried to turn away, that voice that had been dead for nearly 6 months found its way back into my head. I gasped and ran towards the bathroom, stopping in front of the mirror, the voiced started its awful speaking. And once it starts. it Never stops.

'Your stupid, just look at yourself, pathetic'

'Why would she even notice you?'

'Go on do it, I dare you, after all you do need it, it will block out the pain.'

I know I shouldn't, but I find myself reaching towards the medical cabinet, maybe, Just maybe this time it will stop the pain. Just for a bit.

I reach into the highest shelf and feel around.

There it is.

'Yes that's right, do it'

I pull down the razor blade from the shelf and look into the mirror.

Who am I?

I deserve this, why would someone as beautiful as Chloe even care about me?

I'm just another face in the crowd to her
Just another face in the crowd.

I hold it above my wrist and lower it,

Wait,

People will see there.

I roll up my sleeve and take a deep breath

'Come on Phil you know she doesn't like you, well nobody does.'

I think of Chloe

1 cut

I think of the drugs

2 cuts

I think of myself

3

4

5

6

They immediately start to bleed and I feel myself crying again.

I don't care anymore

I give up.

I sink down against the door and run my fingers along the old scars on my thighs and wrists.

I cry to myself in the bathroom silently.

Last time I did this people said it was for attention

Stupid naive people.

They don't know a thing about me.

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Sorry guys this one was quite sad!
But I hope you liked it anyway :)

Bye xx