Mia's Untold Stories

Chapter 12 - Messed up days

The following afternoon I woke up to a message from Joseph. I slept at about 4am, so I only woke up in the afternoon. So about an hour after I fell asleep Joe sent me a text.

"It was nice talking to you 🤗😘"

Mia, you can make him tremble still. You can still have him begging to want you back.

Sweetie you don't need his negative energy affecting your life. Karma will get him eventually. Remember that song Karma by Alicia Keys, well life will teach him one day.

Mia you could be the one to let Karma take place.

I ignored the voices and sent him a message responding "likewise" with a link to my latest poem online, he promised he would read it. Then again, he never lived up to promises.

I chose to put him on mute and archive him. Not like his going to message me anyway.

I searched through all my notifications to find the one I was actually looking for... William.

"Mia'LiCiouS" a single text, with so much emotion.

I never really knew William so well and I want to emphasize that. From what I've seen from the past few days his got me feeling well completely out of my dumps.

I felt like I was about to lose my mind completely. It was making weird ringing sounds. I could feel I was on the mere tip of toppling over and becoming the little rabbit in Alice in Wonderland.

You were about to end up in the Looney Bin, I mean an asylum, a hospital for the mentally ill. I was going to drive you there for sure.

See miracles exist. This loser was leading you to insanity, but that childhood innocence you hold onto so dearly is the reason you're alive this time around. Aladdin sure is dreamy.

Then again "all the best people are crazy". Where's the fun in being normal anyway? Something my childhood favourite, Looney Tunes had taught me.

I don't want to admit to it, not to any of it, however fact remains between Roxy and William they my anchors currently. An almost stranger and a best friend with drama of her own. The fate of my mental stability hung in their hands and they weren't even aware of it.

William said something that stuck with me all week long.
He said "I'm gonna have to wait to watch mia bloom into the beautiful orchard she's meant to be".

He compared me to a flower. It may seem simple, but just after the peak life of a beautiful flower it withers away. The point of all life is just to wither away and it gives me a sense of tranquility, yet disturbance simultaneously.

It's peaceful that everything has to bloom at some point.
It's horrifying that after the best part of somethings life it begins to fall apart and die.

Is that what happened with my relationship or am I dwelling upon the wrong places again?

Giving someone new a chance is a complete different risk. You don't know what to expect from them. You don't know their flaws and their strengths.

Being a girl isn't easy. Jumping from one relationship into the next, makes society judge you more than usual. Horrible rumours will be spread. Nobody wants to be that girl that seems easy and that any guy can have her, but moving so quickly from one relationship into another gives everyone precisely that thought.

Even though Joseph and I have barely even been together since we last got back together, nobody will view it that way.

Breaking up with Joe, to flirting with William will ruin whatever little reputation I have left. If there's any left.

I know I'm supposed to live a life that's not dictated by society, but we all let society tell us what we can and can't do. We all want to be 'perfect' in some way. We all want to be 'the best' at something.

We so competitive about the small things that we don't even realize how we bringing others down. I sure hope I haven't, because if I'm already this low, I don't know how much lower anyone could be.

You brought Bruce down.

That wasn't my fault. Just leave it be!

William asked me how was my day. Well I suppose it was exciting in somewhat way.

I woke up to babies crying, and I was wondering when did I become a mom. I was pretty sure, I couldn't have been hallucinating for so long. I told you I was going nuts.

Then I found out my sister, Tracy asked my mom to babysit her kids this morning. It was actually nice to spend time with the teeny little minions.

Once the one baby was asleep, I decided to jump in the shower. You know that scene in a cartoon whereby it's either so hot or cold that the character jumps through the roof and flies out. Well, that was me. Turns out the element of our geyser blew, so that was the absolute highlight of my morning.

I ended up laying on my bed with the one kid that was awake. We were watching music videos on my phone. Turns out she loves Mariah Carey..

Then I got a call from Emmanuel, and due to my over preoccupied mind, I actually forgot to eat today.

That about sums up my day. So I suppose it wasn't amazing. It wasn't horrible. I suppose it was meh's mom from the emoji movie.

I just wish my life could be something out of a movie or a book, instead it's like a river with way too many ups and downs. In reality there is no happy endings.

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