Maybe I've been just a boy to some people,but I've never had the clue that I would be your special boy,your whole World that you always keep it in your lonely mind.
She finally admitted what I am to Her,what I really mean to her. I feel special,I am special to her. She left me without breath. I've never thought that such a girl like her,such a stubborn and undecided girl which I meant the whole life to her would be so confident,in this case. She means way more to me,she's the whole uncounting stars to me,how huge is the Universe,as much as all the seven continents together,four billion people on the Earth,seventeen billion faces,but there's only one Ariana to me,that exists only in my World. Ariana is like diamond,the sun,and the sunflowers exploding all in some beauty that no one else had seen it,until you finally get the chance to know her,and then you realize that you are the happiest human alive.
-You used to live here Ariane?
I could see it from her sleepless eyes,she was hurt. For the first time,I walked in this place,I knew it wasn't going to make her feel happy or better,only break her down even more,I had a feeling that I would be awkward and uncomfortable,like always Luke,like always.
-Yeah,-she answered unsure of what she was going to say,-just that,when my mother died,we decided to move in England,where we live now,England is my only home.
I wasn't convinced,her life story was driving me insane,too much drama and losts,just like I have used to before,but curiosity kills all the living beings,most of the World would die and then return back again,just to know the truth,just to know what is that "little" thing that afflicts them too much. Will they ever know from what all this comes?! Will we ever know?
-But...why?!
I guess curiosity is doing it job,destroying and biting me alive,just to get to know her,just to find out from what all this comes,what force of gravity is this that calls me,draws me in everytime.
-Luke,-she laughed bitterly,having enough of me tho,but it looks like she never gets tired of my questions,of me,she wants me to want her,just like her,but that's impossible,because you are apart of my both Worlds,reality and fantasy's one. Her sarcasm way is showing me that she desperately wants to answer to it,still unsure of what she's doing.
-Because,I thought everything was going to change,all this places,especially this one,this piano,would remind me every second,every moment of my life,my own sweet loving,caring mother. We decided to make a plan,"The Happy Plan",to get away from this place. My father gave up on everything,-she shrugged innocently...gave up on me too. I gave up from myself too,music,my life,I forgot the reasons of why I was alive! For all these reasons,you are here now,into my life,you came just like the ocean waves collide with the shore..Luke,I think I love you,not like just a friend to me,you're way more than just a brother to me,you're..you're my life. I feel pain,when I feel love and that's so incredibly incredible!
She was laughing! Her melody came like a beautiful sound,more beautiful than the wind blowing your messy hair,stronger than a tornado,louder than a tsunami,and right now,I could call myself the beyond happiest,loved,special person in all the World,both of them.
I smiled,beacuse I thought I knew her,but the truth is,I didn't know her at all.
-I thought I knew you...but...
She came closer,then again stood far into the darkness,away from me,echoing through the whole theatre:
-There's so much that you don't know about me,absolutely nothing.
And then she started,mourned,being knackered to lay her body into mine,breaking down,deeper,into shaddered broken pieces,falling behind.
-Ariane...uhm either you don't know about me..I mean,some little things,-I barely found the right words,barely changed quick that sentence,fear taking all I had,my breath hitched into my sore throat,a lump forming on it,this wasn't a good sign at all for me.
My darling,oh how mixed up and confusing you make my messy feelings,but I don't mind,this makes me feel loved,by you. Your mess is mine.
I could feel she turned her face,watching me already in my black hole,feeling frustrated and scary, making me more uncomfortable and unsure,why did I say that huh?! We're all weird,and that's cool.
-Little things? Can I hear them?-she calmly asked.
-Uhh..well...
It was getting harder for me than I thought,of course,that mouth can't stay closed all the time,she needs to breath too,but it was harder,like the Moon can't confess her huge love to the Sun,like the rabbit loved too much hedgehog,but it killed him.
-Well? What is it,really? Or...or you can't tell me because they're like too bad?!-she was ready to scream,I couldn't describe it the expression of her face,because dark is dark.
-Some succsessful people,of the most famous University of the World,sent me an acceptettion,to continue with my studies in Oxford,-I finally said it,but wait,here it goes,it isn't over.
-That was all?! Here you go,you said it,like c'mon Luke,we're both here to confess,our sins and drama lifes of ours,it never ends right? It will never end,until life breaks us apart,leaves us all naked from souls and bodies,getting our hearts colder,and ripping them, again,what you win,to get hurt all the time,to live in a shadow all the time?! Is this why we brought to life? To be ...to be apart?! Is this too hard?! Tell me,because I need to know.
The situation got ouf of hands,it all heated up. I don't have the idea,where are we going,like this?! I mean,she is right,why have we brought to life?To feel pain,because like that you can only touch and smell the bitter taste of love?!
-No...no,I should go there to see how far I can go with my life,to continue to learn her mysteries that hurt us..and to make a better future of mine.
I couldn't see her in the eye,she was going to send me hate and would put me down,ignoring me,knowing that ten minutes before,I was her whole secret,her World. I am insecure and she is made of stone,until she decided to speak:
-Yeah,I,I get that...uhm Luke what about us?!
Her voice,barely keeping it up,she was scared from my answer,while I just stood there,watching her from head to toe.
Her sparkling beauty breathtaking face hitted me like a knife in the heart,sadness,cries filling her over,they were the only thing that have left to her,but I'll be here,you get me all the time,don't ever forget that..wow am I talking to myself,come on Luke,stop why don't you say these words to her,stop keeping them into your heartless brain,tell her.
If you could only see her eyes,getting closed and barely opened all the time,she became paler and colder,what kind of medecine should make her live the life with bright colors?! Am I hers?
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Beyond The Sky (A Luke Hemmings Romantic Novel)
Fanfiction"To live with my endless love,it means that you have never died." "Do not be afraid of Death,baby girl. Anyway,you pass from a room to another one. The important thing is to rest in peace and to Dream".
