Will You Catch Me If I Fall?

Chapter 38

"I mean it this time. Get out of my house." Sophia

Mas lalong hinigpitan ni Clynton ang kanyang yapos sa akin.

"I can't lose you again." Clynton

"It's been six years, Clynton.." Sophia

"I don't care. Ikaw lang ang mahal ko, Sophia." Clynton

Nanlambot ako ng marinig ko iyon. Lahat ng sakit na pilit kong tinago for the past six years ay bumalik simula nung makita ko ulit siya. Sobrang sakit padin.  Ang sakit isipin na mas pinaniwalaan nya ang iba bago niya pakinggan ang side ko..

Okay na 'ko eh! Ayaw ko na bumalik sa ganoong klaseng sakit. I don't want to be in pain anymore. Lintek, Bakit ba kasi hanggang ngaun pilit siyang pumapasok sa buhay ko?

Hindi ako nag patinag at tuluyan kumawala sa kanyang pag kakayapos. Narinig ko ang pag hikbi niya at naramdaman ko ang mga luha niyang tumutulo sa aking balikat.  I've never seen him cry kaya pati ako ay parang tinutusok sa puso ng makita ko siyang ganoon.

Nag lakad ako palayo sakaniya ngunit patuloy siya na sumusunod sa akin.

"Clynton, leave." Sophia

"I never abandoned you.. I went to New York.." Clynton

Nagulat ako ng marinig ko ito galing sakaniya. I looked at him at napabuntong hininga siya. If he followed me why didn't he approach me? Bakit hindi man lang siya nag paramdam sa akin na nandoon siya? I've never seen him in New York.

"I was so mad at you, I'm still mad at you.. I can't fully understand how easy it was for you to give up on me, on us.. You kept running away.. Kaya noong bumalik ka, I was so angry.. I was trying to live my life the best way I can without you.. You seem fine in New York without me.. Kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko, Why would she come back now?"

I saw the pain and sorrow in his eyes but what for? Para saan? He doesn't look like he's trying to survive. Mukhang okay na okay pa nga sya. I guess the pain forced us to grow.

"I thought I lost everything, and then you came back. Everything I've ever lost came back to me.. I knew I needed to do something.. I just can't stand here and let you drift away from me again.. I could live a life without you but I'm choosing not to.. I want you in my life, Sophia.." Clynton

You chose to leave me.. What did you expect me to do? Endure the pain of seeing you after what you did? Hindi mo ako pinakinggan, bakit kita papakinggan? Hindi ako sumagot. Going away from all the mess has always been the easiest escape for me..

I stayed silent dahil nag process pa sa aking utak lahat ng sinabi nya sa akin. Sinundan niya ako? Galit siya sa akin then why does he keep making this complicated? Sana ay nanatili nalang siyang galit sa akin.

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Kasalukuyan akong nasa sasakyan ngayon kasama ang driver ko papunta sa Palm Bliss. Ilang oras na din kami bumabyahe. I was off for two days dahil pinag leave nga ako ni Kuya. Medyo okay na ang paa ko. Ezekiel would come to the house and check on it. Minsan ay pinapalitan nya ang bandage and he would make more compressions on it. Ang pag leave ko sa trabaho ay mas nakatulong upang gumaling agad ang aking paa.

Nag hire na si Kuya ng sarili kong driver para hindi kami nag hahati sa kanyang driver. Habang naka leave ako ay nag paka busy ako sa aking trabaho. I did some paper works and reviewed the designs of the furnitures na naipapasa sa akin galing sa factory. So far, so good.