Sea of Death (Edmund Pevensie )

Brothers and Kings

Flashback: Before Peter leaves for America.

I watched Erica and Peter as they bid their goodbyes, holding a grudge against my brother was something I was usually good at but Peter was leaving and I didn't know exactly for how long, I do admit the timing of this whole situation is off but he is my brother.

Once I knew Peter was out of Erica's sight I approached him.

"Peter !" I called for him, he turned around and put his bags down. I walked over to him hesitate of what to say in particular.

"Ed look I'm sorry I kissed your girl." He stopped to find the right words. "it was wrong on my part in so many ways, I guess I have always envy your relationship with her and I let the idea of that get the best of me, it's wasn't the right move and I knew it from the start." Peter took the chance to explain himself and I just stood there with a hundred ways I could turn this conversation around to blaming him for my misery, But I didn't.

"I understand, and I forgive you," I said and stuck my hand out.

Peter started at me dumbfounded, after a few seconds he looked down at my hand and then he shook his head before taking my hand.

"And just so you know if you want to peruse a relationship with Erica it's fine with me, I give you permission," I said as we took our hands back. I couldn't stand the thought of how badly I have hurt her, so if being with Peter comforted her it was okay with me- even though it wasn't okay with me whatsoever.

When Peter said nothing in return I nodded and started walking away. I felt sick in the stomach and when a sudden impact struck my back it didn't help either.

"HEY!" I turned around to see a once again furious Peter.

"You think Erica is a toy? You play with her and once you're done you pass her along? You don't give me permission to date Erica I don't need your permission if I wanted I could have her now!" Peter yelled though I could tell his bluff frustrated I rushed over to Peter and grabbed him by his collar.

"SHE IS NOT A TOY TO ME, SHE MEANS THE WORLD AND I HAVE SHATTERED HER IN SO MANY PIECES!- I DONT THINK I CAN FIX IT ANYMORE!"

"So yes, I'm giving you permission to take the best thing in my life and treat it better than I can ever, she deserves a man Peter, and I can't be that for her !" I let go peters collar as the tears roll down my face Peter pulls me into a hug that turns into deep sobs.

"Hey, hey hey! Look at me." Peter pulls my head up.

"Do you wanna know something when I kissed Erica for that 5 seconds I felt nothing there, you know why Ed? Because no part of her wanted to kiss me, she will always and forever be in love with you, now I know for a fact that does not happen when you two kiss. And, and when I was saying goodbye she told me to find a girl who loves me because she doesn't." Peter's words of condolence seemed suspicious but one look at my brother's eyes and I could see the guilt he felt shine bright.

"Ed you are the man for her mark my words when I say that." Peter patted my shoulder.

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"This is the station you should head back now." Peter motioned, I handed him one of his bags that I offered to carry on the way over while recalling our memories from our first visit at Narnia. Remembering how close and trusting I was from when I was much older, the fights the parties and the thrill of it all made me a better person, than losing it was like waking from an incredible dream to an utter state of disappointment.

But finding Erica was like finding hope in a bottomless ocean. And that's when I finally understood Peter's desire for Erica.
When I realized that I had fallen in love with Erica without even knowing that I had I was riding on cloud nine, the happiness and joy of being in love with Her was so addictive that just the thought of losing it would send me on a path of rage. The same rage Peter felt in Narnia. I looked at my brother who was now looking for his train ticket.