Silence filled the cold night, Erica sat there with her mouth hanging partially open, Edmund didn't dare to blink, as if Erica would vanish even if he closed his eyes for a moment.
After what seemed like sitting and staring for hours Erica sighed and stood up before walking away from Edmund.
Ericas P.O.V
I didn't know how to describe how I felt, did I feel betrayed? Or did I feel hurt? Maybe I was angry or maybe I was sad or did I feel relive? Restless of my current state I stood up and started walking down the beach hugging my coat as tight as possible against my body.
"Erica!" I heard small calls of my name in a whisper yell, I knew exactly who that voice had belonged to. Trying not to wake everyone in the campsite up Edmund followed me down my walk quietly.
Once I knew we were far enough from camp I stopped. I heard the sand crash behind me to indicate Edmund had also stopped.
"You- you made me feel as if I was the only reason our relationship ended. " my voice cracked and I hated that I sounded so weak.
"You, knew that when I thought I had hurt you it was killing me inside."
"You knew I only loved you, yet you kissed another girl despite me telling you over and over again I didn't want Peter." I turned to finally meet Edmund who had his hands buried in his pocket and was biting his rosy lips down.
"I spent 365 days of my life regretting that night over and over again, I have lived that night over a million times and it tortured me to the bones, Edmund!" I started crying without even realizing the tears had escaped my eyes and was dripping from under my chin.
"YOU! made me feel unhappy like it was only my fault when YOU! kissed another girl."
"Eric-"
"NO! You don't get to talk. I've told you a thousand times that I only loved you yet you have not trusted me one single time. "
"Do you want to know why I kissed peter that night Edmund? It's because you and I just had fought about the same problem we have had since your first Narnia visit. Peter! I didn't enjoy my kiss with Peter if that what you think happened, In fact, the only reason I kissed Peter was because he valued me for what I'm worthwhile you had no trust in me and never believed I could only love you and be happy." Before I knew it, Edmund took big steps forward.
Peter, Peter, Peter! He was the one who could always make you smile after I made you cry, the one who could make you laugh after you missed home, the one who you'd grow to share secrets and jokes with, while I sat and watched you be closer to Peter than you ever were with me. I have regretted what I have done that night ever since it happened Erica, I have hated my self for not telling you the truth, the reason I wanted to join the army was so I wouldn't have to face you every day and live with my self knowing I was a coward."
"I'm a boy and Peter was the man, I was the just and Peter was magnificent. I betrayed my siblings for power and PETER GOT A SWORD FROM ASLAN! I have feared every day since Narnia that you would one day leave me for him. "
"Erica I also accepted the fact that if you were happy with Peter I wouldn't stand in your way, but then he left and it was you and me and I couldn't tell you about Julie because I didn't think I could hurt you anymore." Breathing heavily after each of his explanations Edmund sighed. "I have hated my self since that day, you got to believe me when I say that!" He stepped closer to me.
"I know I should've told you about Julie the very night it happened but I believed I'd deserve the pain it caused me to see you and Peter together because it wasn't even equivalent to the pain I had caused you."
"But I know better now, I can trust you, Erica, I can trust you with my life and that is something I will stand by until my last breath." I looked into Edmund's piercing brown eyes glistening even brighter in the moon.
"You only now know you can trust me..." Erica's words faded.
"Edmund I understand you were hurt and you felt as if you couldn't compare to Peter but that's not true, you were the man I loved, yes peter was kind and was a friend at times when you weren't but, that's all that he is and forever will be a good friend." I sighed- "I just can't keep having this conversation with you." I turned around to walk away but felt pull on my waist, my back hit Edmunds chest and he held me in place.
"Ed-"
"Shhh.." his warm breath tickled my ears.
"I'm so sorry for everything that I have done to hurt you and to hurt our relationship. So hurt me back Erica but please don't say you will leave me." I closed my eyes and fought back the tears threatening to escape my eyes.
"I'm sorry to.." I turned around but not meeting his eyes, words escaping my mouth suddenly without me even thinking.
"I don't want you to jeopardize your precious relationship with your own blood brother for me. " I stepped back letting his arms fall. Feeling as if though me being in their lives has caused damage to their brotherly relationship. However, to my surprise, Edmund seemed nervous by my comment.
"Well since I'm not keeping secrets from you anymore, Peter and I put our issues aside and forgave each other." Great another thing that happened that I was never informed about.
Hey guys! It's Bella Thank you for waiting for an update, sorry it took so long as you can tell with everything going on in the world, it's been hard on me to write or get my mind on anything. Yet as I mentioned before I wanted to complete the England plot before continuing with the main storyline.
The next update will come very soon.
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Sea of Death (Edmund Pevensie )
Fiksi Penggemar- Sequel to wish of war It's been 3 years since Erica left Narnia when she left her whole world behind to be with the boy she loves. - But things didn't go as planned for Erica and Edmund. Everything seemed to go downhill and Erica wished despera...
