𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐄

12

JAN 1999

||LISA||

"Lisa cmon, get up..you've been in this bed for over a month now." Ro said trying to pull me out of bed. It's been a month since Tupac died and I've slipped under a deep depression. He didn't even tell me or Maralei goodbye. We were supposed to get married, have more kids and live on until we BOTH drop. It wasn't supposed to be like that. I'd give anything to bring him back to me.

"They want me to talk about where I was when he died. I don't wanna fucking talk about that shit!" I sighed. "Cmon, we'll help you get there. And we won't leave your side ok?"

I got dressed in something clean for the first time and put my hair in a bun and we all headed down to the studio where we saw Jada, Snoop, Marlon Wayne, and others to talk about Pac. "Hi Lisa.." the interviewer said as he hugged me. "My condolences to you and your family. We just wanted you to come out and share your special moments with Tupac." I nodded lifelessly.

"OK 3, 2, 1. GO!"

"Tupac meant so much to me..when he got shot that last time, he proposed to me that night. So we celebrated and we called everybody, yanno. We're gettin' married!" I chuckled. "Then he stops...puts the phone down and gives me a lot of kisses on the lips and says 'I'm goin' to the store, I love you SOOOOOOOOOO much' .... and he never said it so...boldly before so I knew something was up." I sighed and looked down at my fingers and started crying. "And when I got that call....my heart fell to my toes and I swear I felt my soul leave my body." I said crying

"Jada, his best friend, Jada Pinkett was holding me as I sobbed in her arms and I just couldn't take it. And it feels like he left me....even tho it's not true and it's a selfish way to look at it..but it feels like he had so much unfinished business here. And I don't think the higher power took him because- cus they needed him...it just wasn't his time to go." I wiped my eyes and i chuckled. "I mean he was shot before so I thought he was gonna be fine." I smiled and looked down as a frown slowly formed across my face and i started crying again.

The interview told them to stop filming and they followed orders. She handed me a bunch of tissues and I wiped my eyes clearly. The interview went on for, what if felt like, hours. We left shortly after and I went back home and went back to sleep some more.

It took a minute for me to fall asleep but when I did, I knew my dreams started back up.

//INSIDE THE DREAM//

I was in a dark cloud as I saw a male figure in the distance. "Lisa.." He called out. I kept trying to see who it was but the image wasn't getting clearer anytime soon. Then when I got closer...it was Pac. "Tupac??" He smiled and held his arms out as I ran towards him and we hugged and it felt like the best hug we've ever had. I started sobbing trying to get my words out. "Why did you leave me and Ly, Pac?" I said crying in my hands. "I didn't leave you guys..." He said removing my hands to wipe my eyes. I kept crying. "So where are you going to since you're not with me and your daughter?' I said as my face drooped about 3 octaves

He walked up to me, held my cheek and kissed my forehead. "I love you to the moon and back...I'll be with you 24/7. All the time, everyday. You'll always be mine, please don't forget me ok?" He said looking into my eyes. His body looked more in detail now he's an angel. I looked into his eyes which looked like fountains of amazing rivers waiting to fall after we leave. I touched his hand and I nodded, "Yes...one last kiss please.."

He held my face gently as he pulled me in. It was just like the first time, sparks flying but this time..I saw them with my own eyes. He laid his soft lips of mine and I felt his thug passion pour into my body. He bit my lip a bit and then kissed my forehead. "I'm always with you, baby doll...Never forget about me ok?" He whispered in my ear, sending chills down my back. Before I could respond, I jumped up out of my bed with sweat, drenched in the sheets and my shirt.

I turned on the light switch and I started hyperventilating. I tried to scream for Tionne and Ro but I felt like they couldn't hear me. Shortly, Natina came in the room and she saw me panicking. "LISA!!" she held me and started to breath slowly as I calmed down with her. "Breatheeeee, breatheeee. Innnnnn..then outtttt." She said calmly, I followed her techniques. "I know you're not having a pleasant time sleeping and Maralei's in the other room playing if you needed her..." Nat said. "Nah...I'm gonna chill out." I nodded.

Nat started to take off my bed sheets covered in sweat and she balled them all up to take em to the washing machine and she ran me some warm but mostly hot bath water just how I like it. "I'm gonna let you get in there and call me if you need any help." Natina hugged me and rubbed my shoulder.

"Nat...Pac's not physically here anymore..like he's not sitting in this tub with me, he's not making me laugh or pissing me off from coming home so late.." I chuckled and put my hands on my head and started crying. "Awww Lisa...it's ok. You still got us and Ly. We won't leave you, trust me.." Nat hugged me and then left me alone in the bath

I sat there in total silence as I washed up and got out which felt like forever and I put on some boy shorts with one of Pac's jerseys that he bought for me. I can still smell him in it <3

When I went downstairs to Tionne and Roz sitting on the couch with a bunch of junk food with DVDs in their hands. "What's this?" I asked softly.

They smiled, "Well we can't let you sit and be sad all night..we're not used to this Lisa. We love you and we want to make you happy so we got all your favorite junk foods and movies and we gon have us a fun ass girls night in!" Ti said smiling. I wasn't in the mood, Roz grabbed my hands and hugged me. "I know you're still in mourning and I know we don't know how you feel personally. But just please sit with us and watch these movies...cus the ice cream's melting.."

The ice cream comment made me giggle so I gave in and sat with them. We watched all my favorite, ate my favorite things, and had some girl talks. They make everything better for me

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Ight this chapter took me centuries to write for no ass reason but here y'all go. Enjoy! Comment, vote, like, do anything but leave negative comments.