𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐋𝐄

16

AUGUST 2000

||LISA|| "WHAT?! What do you mean you can't release it?! I worked my ass off on this project and y'all won't release it cause it's not a full on TLC project?! This is some bullshit!!!"

Instead they postponed it for next year, but I was still pissed about it. I walked out the executive room to my car. I drove home in anger. I swear I flicked somebody off on the way home too.

And now that I think about it, me and Andre were supposed to get married today but I called it off cause I was having blue balls.
All I could think about was Tupac. It's not like he was my first love but...I felt like I couldn't love anybody else but him. Plus me and Andre have been having some....identity issues.

I was laying in the bed, thinking about both Andre and Tupac. I wanted to talk to Andre about it. "Andre!!" I called out for him. He walked to the room, "Yeah bae?" He kissed my forehead and sat down next to me.
I smiled. "Do you love me?" I looked at my freshly pedicured toes then up at him as my eyes sized up 5 times.

"Yes of course I love you, Lisa. You were the first woman to ever show me what love is. You are my love forever. That's why I wanna finally make you mine cause nobody else can have you."

I frowned. "Do you love me?" He asked. It took me a minute to answer. "Lisa..." He looked away and cleared his throat awkwardly. "It's not that I don't love you because I do..I'm still in grieving."
"Yeah Lisa but you got to get over it somehow. I mean...you're with someone new-"

"But Andre, that's my child's father! That last person I was in love with. I can't just 'get over it somehow'- How would you feel if I died??" I made a stank face towards him and he became quiet. "That's what I thought...get out my room." I turned over on my side. "Lisa don't act l-"

"GET OUT!" I yelled. "Andre, I'm not playing get out my room. I don't wanna see you! You fucking ruined my mood and Ion even wanna talk about it no more."
"Don't act like that..cmon" he started kissing up on my neck and rubbing against my thighs. "Andre, I said STOP." I pushed his hands away forcefully. "Lisa, what's the damn problem? It's like you wanna be sensual and I do that and it turns into a argument!"

"No! I asked a question and then you started kissing and rubbing. Aint shit was sensual! I wanted to have a real ass conversation witchu and it's like you don't even wanna listen to me!" I said in frustration.

"Nah Lisa! Its been this way for the last 6 years! It's like you don't even wanna sit and actually have a conversation with ME! You always jump to conclusions!"
"Andre..don't fucking tell me I jump to shit. And actually, I have to jump to conclusions with you because it's like you put me thru all this bullshit for the last SIX YEARS!"
"What have I put you thru?" He asked nonchalantly.

"Are you fucking serious? How bout cheating back to back, a open relationship, abuse, and OH I forgot not 1, BUT TWO MISCARRIAGES!! You think you have the right to whine and bitch about all the fucking work you NEVER put in this relationship! I've been thru the most out of BOTH of us. You have no fucking reason to talk about nothing. NOTHINGGGGG!!!" I had tears streaming down my face because after all these years, he still didn't get it.

"Lisa, I'm sorry bu-"
"WHY YOU ALWAYS GOT TO BE SORRY?! JUST BE BETTER! It's never 'Lisa, I'll never do it again' WITHOUT THE ACTUAL CHANGE!! You know what...leave. Get out..I don't wanna see you ever again in my life.." I growled.