I'll Never Say Never Say Never Again

Chapter 23

Emily’s P.O.V

My smile grew wide as I saw him standing there; but it soon disappeared when I saw the expression on his face. He looked angry and confused. His eyes showed he was hurting but I couldn’t understand why. He turned and ran out the shop. He pushed past people and then began running up the escalator. Tears filled my eyes, like they had his, not understanding why he had just ran away from me without any explanation. James put his hand on my shoulder from behind me and I shrugged it off. People began looking at me as I sobbed harder.  I picked up my bag and James grabbed my hand turning me to look at him. He looked at me confused.

“Emily who the hell was that?” He asked looking slightly angry. I just shook my head as he continued to hold onto my hand. “Emily tell me who it was.” His voice had become stern now. I shook my arm and pulled my hand out his grasp. I walked out the shopping centre and to the bus station looking down trying to avoid the wondering stares of people as I cried walking through the centre. I got onto the bus which went to my apartment and I sat at the back in the corner and just looked out the window away from everyone else.

I had left James at Selfridges not wanting him to follow me. I needed time to think. I needed to talk to Josh. I pressed the button for the bus to stop at my apartment and I stepped off. I opened the door and ran up the stairs into my apartment. I slammed the door behind me and fell to me knees holding my head while I cried. I hadn’t done anything but Josh had run away from me angry. I angrily wiped the tears from my eyes as I got my phone out my bag. I called Josh but it went to voice mail .  We were both looking forward to seeing each other so much and now he had left me crying in the middle of Selfridges. I needed answers and maybe I’d understand. I tried phoning him again but there was still no answer.

“Josh what have I done wrong?” I cried down the phone. “Why did you run away? I was so happy when I saw you standing there then you ran and I don’t understand why?” I left the voice mail and carried on crying to myself. My phone rang and I looked hoping that it was Josh but it was Georgie.

“Hey, how was Josh’s surprise?” I just cried even more at the mention of his name. “Wow, Emily what’s wrong? I will kill him if he’s hurt you.”

“I saw him and then he just ran off, he was crying and I don’t know what I did wrong.”

“Well I’d love to say that I will go to talk to him but he’s not here.” Panic took over my body because Josh should have gotten back before me. “Look, me and Matt will go and look for him, don’t worry. I’ll phone you in a bit. You go and have a bath or something to calm down.”

“Okay, thanks. Make sure you do phone me.”

“Okay, bye Emily.” I put the phone down and I was still crying. I pulled myself off the carpet and went into the kitchen. I poured myself a large glass of wine and then went into the bathroom and ran a bath. I put the wine in the side of the bath along with my phone in case someone rang. I poured lots of lavender bath milk into the bath and the bubbles foamed. I got undressed and stepped in. The hot water relaxed my muscles and calmed my body.

My eyes were sore from crying so much and my head was beginning to ache. I sipped my wine; it probably wouldn’t help my head but who cares. My mind raced over all the things that I could have done wrong. Maybe he had found someone else who was better than me and he was just coming to tell me that it was over. It made me sad, the idea of him with someone else, but as long as he was happy it wouldn’t matter.  I kept looking at my phone hoping that he would call any moment apologizing for running away but I knew it wouldn’t happen. I wished Georgie would ring and say they had found him and he was okay. I lay in the bath just sipping my drink as the odd tear rolled down my face. I didn’t feel like I could possibly cry any more so I just closed my eyes and lay my head back against the bath. My phone buzzed making me jump to pick it up quickly. I didn’t even look who it was before answering the call.