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Fight

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requested by @skaurahitoshi

this chapter takes place in the beginning of 2018

Ae-Ra's POV

I think all of my members and I can agree that 2018 has been a rough year. Even though our music was doing well, we weren't. There was always tension during practice and we all felt the need to be better. 

MAMA 2018 was coming up in 3 months and with all of this stress I was very worried.

Bang Pd-nim and us decided to hold a meeting after practice, as I neared the room I felt my anxiety increase. I turned the door knob and opened the door to see Jimin, Hoseok, and PD-nim sitting down. We waited at least 5 minutes till' everyone arrived and started talking.

"Many of the staff and I have been noticing some tension in the air between everyone are there any concerns you want to address?" PD-nim said.

Namjoon looked around to see if anyone was planning to speak and when he saw no one he said

"Sir, nothing wrong has happened between us if that is what you are asking. I think everyone is just stressed out with everything that is happening. I feel as if my inspiration is slowly draining away that is one thing that has been stressing me out to the point I haven't been doing well in practice."

"Well, I feel as if when I'm trying to make lyrics I can't get one word right. It all just sounds wrong when I hear it, and I don't know what I can do about it..." Yoongi says eyes filled with frustration.

"I have been feeling a lot of pressure about my dancing... Our choreography is continuously getting harder and I don't want to fall behind so I have been staying in the practice room longer than I have to. But the problem is I don't think I'm improving at all." Seokjin says

I pat his back in attempt to comfort him, in response he gives a reassuring smile. Taehyung then speaks saying

"As you know I've been working on some solo songs because I wanted to try something new but that has been stressing me out so much because it's my first time writing lyrics and it's very frustrating..."

PD-nim looks at Jimin signalling him to go

"As most of you know I am a perfectionist, and with all of our stress piling up I feel as if everything I'm doing is wrong and it just makes me disapointed in myself..."

I saw Jimin's eyes get slightly teary and all I wanted to do was jump across the table and give him a hug.

"We're producing our upcoming album and since half of the songs are finalized I have tried coming up with choreography but I haven't been able to get anything yet... I feel like I can't even talk about this because everyone expects me to be their hope and sunshine that will get them out of their hard times... But who will help me." Hobi says sadly

I look down in my lap feeling guilty I hadn't noticed this, if I had maybe he wouldn't have felt like this...

Jungkook looked at me, and I took this as a signal and started talking

"I've been trying to finish the songs for our album but my mind always goes blank whenever I need to write the lyrics..."