Broken Memories | Jaden Smith |

Been Lying. | Chapter IV |

"Hazel, talk to me!" Asia said wrapping her arms around my shoulder as we walked the halls. Asia pulled the shades from my eyes, only to see me crying. I grab the shades from her hands, and placed it back on. "Hazel, please tell me whats wrong!"  She begged.

I walked away from her and enter first period. I sat in my usually seat. I blocked everyone out of my ears. This angry.. I just could'nt let it go. I'm being rejected by love. I've never opened my eyes to view that way. I look around and all I see everyone happy. Smiles would fool ya, but the question is why am I not happy?

"Hazel, please read the next chapter?" Ms. Willam asked.

"Did I raise my hands miss?"  How you gon' ask me to read, when I aint even volunteer?  

I faced my head down the desk. I feel like dying. "Ms. Willam can I use the restroom please?" I asked without raising my hands. She nodded her head, and gave me a yellow pass. 

I slide down the dusty wall of the girls restroom wall. Where did i go wrong?  I balled up in my hands, and began hitting my head rapidly. Words kill you. Words are a weapon. The words he spoke slowing craved into my body, leaving another scar. 

I walked out of the door, not planning on going back to class for shit. Someone grab onto my hands I turn to see who it was only to found out it was Jaden. "What do you want now???" I asked aggravated. "Listen, what I said yesterday was uncall for. I wanted to apologize."  He said softly. Why would my tears choose now to cry? Why? He removed the shades from my eyes. He gently wipe the tears from my eyes. 

He brought my waist closer to his body. I wrap my arms around his lower back. I cried silently as I buried my head into his chest. 

"I'm sorry" He said as he kissed my forehead. 

A Year Later ...

"Asia? why would you do that? You know how fast shit get to my Dad? His gonna kick your ass out! That boy you with is making you do this huh????" I said looking her in her eyes.

"Nooooooo, whyyyy woooould my babbbbbbby do soooomething like that?" Not able to function her mouth. 

"You know what? Get your shit and get out my damn house!" I said in control.

"Wait Hazel, listennn!" She said hugging on my knees. I pushed her off. "Why you still here? Get your shit and leave!" I demanded. 

I'm tired of this shit. I feel like I became her mother. She needs to do this shit on her own now. I'm not gonna have her doing drugs in this house. My Dad will kill me and press charges on her. I rather her leave than to be in jail. In my aspect this was the best decision. She became a slut, I thought all she was doing was dating , but no boo. She went all out for them boys. I wish she was the old Asia.

She looked back at me once, and left the door with her bags. 

"I don't know every since we graduated High school, she haven't been the same. You know I had to do what I gotta do"  I said sitting in between Jaden legs as he wrap his hands around my torso.

"I told you since day one she was a hoe, I did my job" He told me.

"You did your job by saying I was gonna become a hoe just like her, okay." I said remembering that day. 

"I thought you was like them girls who ride off people dicks" He said bluntly. 

"Let me lay this out to you boo, I'm every women for herself. These chicks don't please me. I don't need anyone telling me how to handle my business." 

"How we lead to this conversation?, I already know your every women for herself speech." 

"It's good to remind people of that useful information."  I smiled.

He slip his hands under my shirt just above my waist. 

I laughed. "What?" He asked.

"Where's your girlfriend?" 

"I don't know and I don't care" 

"Jaden don't hit me with the bull. You ain't fooling anybody with that I don't care attitude." I said standing up. 

"Why we gotta talk about her for? I came to talk to you."

"No, You gonna tell me what's going on." I said folding my arms.

"Don't stress. She my girl, not yours." He pulled me back into his laps and wrap his arm even tighter around me. 

"The bitch taking your money huh?" 

"Oh my gosh Hazel, are we seriously talking about her?" 

"Damn right! I don't know why you keep running back to her. If she keep playing you. Shake my head you just don't learn"  I said.

He pushed me off his lap "Fuck you" He said. I laughed softly "You mad cause I'm being real? Ain't someone tell you about that girl? Oh yeah, that was me."

He raised up to my level. "You don't know what me and her go through! why all of a sudden you care?  jealous?" That question hit me.  "Jaden? you know me better to say that. I'm just watching out for you" I said calmly. "You been acting like that lately, all you talk about is her!" He raised his voice. 

"You know what I'm done talking about her! But when yo ass realize she gold digger, then bring your ragged ass back here!" I try to be calm with him. 

He left the house pissed. He just came back. Well, he had to hear that from somebody.

My heart has been through hell and back

I've only dressed in pretty and black.

Middle finger when it comes to love

Act like I don't really give a fuck.

Cause I've been lying to you

I said I've been lying to me too.