𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙚//𝙖𝙛𝙞

eight

melody

His calming words weren't calming for my hormonal self. I bursted into tears again.

"Stop crying," Ashton laughed, sitting up. "What was it this time?"

"You love me?" I blubbered.

"I do," he smiled at me.

I sighed, finally stopping the crying.

It was hard to process that Ashton loved me. I thought that he didn't want a relationship. I mean, you can love someone and not be dating them. But Ashton and I felt different. We had done such coupley things, but refused to date. It was to much for my brain to handle.

"Okay," I said simply.

~~~

When we walked into Calum's house, to say we received a lot of crap talk would be an understatement.

"I thought you weren't together," Luke teased.

"Is that Ashton's shirt?" Calum asked the second we walked in.

"Hello to you too," I groaned and sat next to Sierra, Crystal, and Samantha.

"You good?" Crystal asked me.

I shrugged. "It's been a long morning."

"Hey, we're always here to listen," Sierra reassured.

I sighed. "Not while they," I motioned to the men. "are in here."

Ashton came up to me and hugged me from behind. "You don't want us here do you?"

I shook my head and rested my hands in his biceps, looking up towards him awkwardly.

"I got it," he let go of me and walked towards Michael, Luke, and Calum. "Hey, wanna go grab some drinks?"

I sighed in relief and we watched them all leave.

"So, what happened?" Samantha asked.

I prepped to tell the story of this long day.

"So you know how Ashton took me home last night after I fell asleep?"

Samantha shook her head. "No, but go on. Also, sorry I couldn't make it last night!"

"It's fine," Sierra smiled.

"Speaking of which," Crystal pulled something out of her pocket. "You forgot your keys."

I took them gratefully and thanked her.

"Well he tried to take me to my place, but I had left my keys, so he couldn't get in. He took me to his house and we woke up spooning."

Crystal smirked.

"It wasn't the first time either! But this time, I was the big spoon, and with my luck I had gotten my period that night and bled all over Ashton." I felt like crying thinking of it again.

The three girls gasped. "Was he okay?" Crystal asked me.

I nodded. "He was super sweet about it, and he let me wear his clothes since blood was all over my other stuff, hence the outfit," I motioned to the clothes I was wearing.

"Ah, that explains a lot," Samantha laughed.

"I still didn't have any tampons or pads or anything, and I didn't have my key to get home. So, Ashton said he would and then we made a deal that I would come with. I was super clingy and frankly pretty annoying, which I feel bad about," I took a deep breath before talking again. "Anyways, this lady was saying that we were a cute couple and stuff, because you know Ashton was holding the box of tampons and stuff and I was like holding onto him like a baby."

The three girls eyed each other, smirking, but I decided to ignore it. I didn't have time for everyone's comments.

"When we were in the self check out, he also surprised me and got chocolate, and then I cried in the car about it because I'm like really hormonal right now."

Sierra laughed a bit.

"He like laid his head on my back and told me he loved me," I tried not to tear up again.

"Aww!" the girls crooned.

"And I accidentally said that I loved him more," I sighed and sat quiet for a second.

Samantha smirked knowingly. "You love him?"

I nodded with a shy smile. "And I feel like it's too quick, you know? We've only known each other for a week or so, but he's always talking about how we're best friends."

Sierra smiled. "That's a cute ending though."

I shook my head. "That's not the very end."

Crystal raised her eyebrows. "Oh?"

"After I said that, he said it was impossible, that I couldn't love him more than he loves me."

"Aww," they cooed again.

"Date, now," Crystal joked.

I sighed, smiling. "I wish. But, he says he's noncommittal and he doesn't like 'do' relationships."

Sierra sighed. "That's too bad, you guys would be so cute!"

I shrugged. "Eh, I don't know..."

"Are you kidding me?" Crystal squealed. "You guys are the cutest!"

"Ha! Have you seen you and Michael or Sierra and Luke?" I scoffed.

"Puh-leaz!" Sierra laughed.

The front door opened, and in walked Ashton, followed by Calum, Luke, and Michael.

"Here, you want a beer?" Ashton asked me.

A cramp started coming as he said that, so I held my stomach, trying to not look obviously in pain.

Ashton's smile faded. "Are you okay?" He sat down next to me.

I nodded and plastered on a fake smile. "Yeah. Yeah, I'm good," I lied.

Ashton still didn't look convinced. "Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure. Go have fun and talk to people."

Ashton still frowned, and didn't seem very convinced that I was okay. "But I wanna talk to you!" he whined.

That comment almost made my cramp disappear. Almost.

"You've been with me for two days straight, go talk to your friends," I pushed him off.

He finally walked away and started talking to Calum. Sierra and Crystal just stared at me and smirked.

"Please date already," Crystal begged.

I put my face in my hands. "You have no idea how bad I want to."

I wanted to cry again. I was so emotional, and the amount of crap that was happening was not helping the situation.

"Don't cry," Sierra laughed. I didn't mind her laughing, because really, it was kinda funny how much I had cried that day.

"But I want to," I whined jokingly, biting my lip to hold back any tears.

"No, you just want Ashton," Samantha pointed out.

I rolled my eyes, still holding back tears. "Thanks, Captain Obvious."

"Ugh, I just want to call out 'Ashton, date Melody!'" Crystal joked.

"I just want to be able to like, cuddle him and not feel guilty because we're 'just friends.'" I sighed.

"I know what you mean," Sierra sympathized.

It's not like I really could be complaining. I had ana amazing and supportive group of friends, the most amazing best friend I could ask for, and the person who I wanted oh so badly to be with told me he loved me more than I could ever love him. That says a lot, because I love that man to pieces.

a/n THREE UPDATES IN A DAYYYY okay melody and ashton plz date we all want you to.
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okay BLM TPWK HAPLY PRIDE MONTH :-)