𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙗𝙡𝙚//𝙖𝙛𝙞

eleven

melody

Ashton gulped and turned back to the toilet.

"You should leave me here."

I sat behind him, shocked. "What? Why?"

He sighed. "I'm such a jerk. I'm so controlling. I'm overprotective. I don't deserve you."

I shook my head. "No, I don't deserve you. You are the best thing I have ever had in my life, and the most amazing best friend I could ever ask for. I'm not leaving you."

"But I'm not good for you, Mel," Ashton frowned, his face pale.

I smirked at his nickname. Nobody had every called me that, but I liked it. "What do you mean?"

"I don't do relationships," he reminded me, causing me to frown. "So how am I supposed to protect you?"

My eyebrows drew together in confusion. Part of me wanted to say 'Well you could start doing relationships,' but I knew that wouldn't hit well. Plus, it was just plain disrespectful.

"Ash, you protect me without us being together."

He shook his head. "Not like that. What if some pedophile came to get you? Or some sicko wanted to date you? What are you supposed to say? 'I have a boyfriend?' Well you don't!"

Ouch.

"Ashton-"

"Don't 'Ashton' me all sweet. You know I'm right. I'm not good for you," he moaned, pain evident on his sculpted face.

"Ashton!" I yelled, done with him. "You are good for me! Are you blind? Where would I be if it wasn't for you? Probably crying all lonely at home on the couch eating ice cream with no social life. Or, maybe I'd be still over there with Jonas."

He made a sour expression and sighed. "What do you want us to do?"

I shook my head. "I don't know. Why can't we just keep up like normal?"

"Because! You'll go out and date that moron out there!" he said impatiently, referring to Jonas.

"Why do you have such a problem with Jonas?" I asked, ticked off.

"He'll hurt you, Mel."

"And you won't?"

I regretted the words as soon as they left my mouth. Ashton's impatient expression softened to hurt.

"What?" he asked in disbelief.

"Never mind," I tried to brush it off.

"No, no, say it again."

I shook my head. "No, I didn't mean it."

"What are you insinuating? That I'd hurt you?"

I shrugged and looked down.

"You think I would hurt you, Melody?"

"I don't know," I murmured.

"Melody I could never hurt you."

"That's a little hypocritical," I muttered under my breath.

Ashton's eyes widened and his mouth dropped, a look of pure shock shown on his face. "Have I hurt you?" he whispered.

I thought for a moment. "Well, not exactly. Not on purpose anyways..."

Ashton lifted him self from squatting in front of the toilet and turned to face me.

"What have I done to hurt you?"

I sat quietly.

How am I supposed to say that I really really like him and it's in a way that he doesn't like me back in. How am I supposed to say that I love him but in a way that's different from the way he does? How am I supposed to say that he's the only man I would consider marrying? How am I supposed to say that I wanna have his babies but he would never approve of that.

"Not much, but it hurt me like a ton of bricks," I said quietly.

"What did I do?" Ashton looked at me with great concern. "Whatever it is, I can fix it."

I shook my head. "No, you can't fix it."

"Is it that bad?"

I shrugged. "Bad for me but not for you."

"Is it because I made you sit on the floor of the men's bathroom?" he joked.

I cracked a smile. "No."

"Melody, tell me," he whined, shaking my shoulders.

I decided to ignore the fact that he was about to throw up.

"It's a lot for me to tell you, Ashton. I can't just blurt it out."

"I'm not going to judge you. Please, just tell me, Mel," he stared at me with pleading eyes.

I took a deep breath. "I love you."

He furrowed his brows. "I love you too."

I shook my head. "No, not like the way I love you."

He smiled. "Yeah, because I love you more than you could ever love me."

I shook my head again. "No, no. I love you Ashton."

He stared at me confused, still not getting it.

"Oh my God. I love you!" I exclaimed, standing up. "I love you more than you will ever love me. I love you more than the world needs the sun. That saying, 'I love you to the moon and back'? Yeah, that doesn't even add up to anywhere near the way I love you."

He looked up at me from the tiled floor.

"And the worst part is," my voice cracked. "you will never love me back."

I bit my lip, trying to hold back tears. Sure, I had cried multiple times in front of Ashton, but never something as serious as this.

Ashton still sat on the floor for what felt like ages, but it was really more like three seconds.

He quickly shot up and cupped my face, connecting his lips to mine. He pressed my back to the side of the stall, and his lips moved slow. He slid his arms down to my waist and pulled my body closer to his, as if that was possible. I held his head before wrapping my arms around his neck, grabbing my opposite elbows so that my arms were tight around him.

I was lost in the moment, and to say I was disappointed when we detached would be an understatement.

"I love you too," he whispered, his breath hot against my face. "Now let's leave before your moron ex takes you away from me."

I nodded and grabbed his hand, lacing my fingers with his. We walked back together and I grabbed my things from the booth.

Jonas stared at me angrily. "Where are you going?"

"Away from you, Stein," I muttered about to walk out.

"You seemed perfectly fine with being with me earlier," he scoffed.

I shrugged. "Things change."

Ashton squeezes my hand as we turned around. "That's my girl."

I looked up at him and smirked. "Since when am I yours?"

He thought for a moment. "As of now."

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