Maybe The Unexpected Isn't So Bad

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven

He’s pregnant. He’s actually pregnant. My boyfriend is pregnant. I got my boyfriend pregnant. I got my Louis pregnant. Louis is actually pregnant and will be giving birth to a real, live, baby boy or girl in nine months. My Louis is actually pregnant with my… our child. A little bit of me and him is living inside of him right now. And I just fucking left him.

“Bloody hell.” I grunt, speeding up, trying to ignore the pain in my legs as I run up the familiar streets of London towards mine and Louis’ flat, trying to get there faster. I realise now it may have been smart to tell the taxi driver to drop me off at out complex, but back then, I was too busy just trying to get back to London to say where, too caught up in the thought that I actually left my pregnant boyfriend alone crying. I left him, just after I swore that we would always be together and I would help him no matter what was wrong with him.

I see the complex just up the street and I speed up, trying to gasp in some air and ignoring the stitch in my side and my aching legs from running too long, just needing to get to Louis quickly.

I made him cry. Sure, it may have been the hormones (didn’t Mum say once that when someone’s pregnant they’re usually very emotional?). But that’s beside the point. Louis never cries. Never.

I run in, towards the elevator and punch the button a million times before the doors finally open. I slide in, skidding a little bit because of my muddy and wet shoes but hit the button for the eleventh floor quickly. My chest rises and falls quickly, desperately trying to get the much needed air into my burning lungs. I lean against the mirror, waiting as the lift slowly goes up to my floor. Once I manage to catch my breath the doors open and I jog out, heading down the hallway towards the flat. My pale, shaking hands open the flat up and I slide inside, kicking my shoes off to stop myself from nearly falling over again before heading into the lounge room to start looking for Louis.

“Louis!” I call, my eyes darting around our flat desperately until a rough hand grabs my arm then slams me into the wall. I gasp as pain shoots up my back but I struggle against the grip, needing to get to Louis so we can talk now.

“So help me, Styles, if you hurt him more than you already have then I will kill you without hesitation.” Zayn growls into my ear, slamming me into the wall again.

“Not before I cut your balls off and feed them to my bloody turtles.” Liam snarls, looking furious at me and I can’t say I blame them. I’m angry at myself.

“I didn’t know your turtles would eat balls…” Niall mumbles but he’s ignored and I look at Liam and Zayn, a desperate, pleading look spreading across my face.

“I’ve never wanted to hurt him! I just want to apologise and hope he’ll take me back!” I exclaim, and Liam’s eyes soften a little bit but Zayn’s remain cold and angry and his grip on me tightens.

“I’m serious, Harry. You hurt him one more time and I’ll make sure you’ll never be able to walk again.” Zayn snarls before throwing me roughly into the wall before storming out, Niall throwing me a look before following him and Liam giving me a slightly concerned and slightly angry glance before starting to close the door behind them, mumbling

“Don’t screw it up, Haz.” The door closes and I take a shaky breath before continuing, this time more quietly into the lounge room, looking for Louis.

“Lou?” I call softly before my eyes fall on the small lump on the couch. My breath hitches in my throat as I see my beautiful boyfriend curled up beneath a blanket, his face squashed into one of his cushions, his face slack with sleep. Before I could realise what I’m doing, my pained legs are making me walk forward then kneeling down beside Louis, staring at his face as his even, soft breaths fill the room. I softly stroke a strand of his hair off his forehead and he lets out a quiet, incoherent mumble before he unconsciously nuzzles his face into the cushions adorably.

“Louis, Lou babe, you need to wake up.” I whisper and he moans again, louder this time before he nuzzles his face further into the cushion.

“M’sleepy Hazza.” He mumbles groggily, already starting to fall asleep again.

“You can’t sleep on the couch, Boo; you’ll hurt your back.” I murmur and he makes an annoyed, tired sound.

“Don’t care.” He mumbles and he curls up more, obviously getting more and more tired.

“The baby will.” I say quietly, my eyes on his face as his blue eyes snap open, rolling over a little bit so he’s looking at me. My chest tightens as his blue eyes fill with pain before they become guarded, blocking me out as he sits up and slides back into the corner of the couch, raising his eyebrows coldly, causing me to flinch.

“What are you doing?” He asks, his voice hard, no emotions showing on his face or coming from his voice, making me feel a million times worse, because I know Louis only does this when he’s terrified but doesn’t want to show it. He does this when he’s not sure whether or not he can trust the people around him or not.

“I’m so sorry Boo.” I whisper and he frowns a little and confusion and worry flashes across his face which makes me continue in a shaky yet sincere whisper “I’m sorry for leaving you. I’m sorry for making you cry. I’m sorry for losing it then walking away. I’m just… I’m so sorry Boo Bear.” He swallows loudly and lowers his eyes away from mine.

“What are you going to do?” He asks softly and it’s like a punch to the gut when I hear his voice shake.

“I love you so much, Louis.” I say, reaching up and gently brushing his cheek, making him glance up and meet my eyes just as a single tear falls from his eyes and falls onto my hand. “And I told you, that we’ll work everything out together, and I want to help you, I want to be apart of this, and I’m so sorry for running away before. I-I don’t know what was going through my head but all I know is that I need to be with you and I really want to be this child’s Dad.” I whisper and he sniffs, lowering his eyes as I stroke his cheek gently. “Lou…”

“What happens if you end up not wanting this and you leave again? What then, Harry?” He asks, his voice sounding so terrified that it sends shivers through me.

“I promise to never leave you again. I swear, Louis.” I say and he sniffs again.

 “You promise you won’t leave?” Louis asks and I climb onto the couch next to him, looking at him directly in the eye.

“I promise to never, ever leave you or our child ever, ever again. I love you… and I know I only found out like a few hours ago but I love our child too. I want this, Lou.” I say and he sniffs, wiping his nose a little bit, biting on his bottom lip as he looks up at me nervously.

“You’re sure?” He asks and I nod earnestly.

“Yes Lou. I’ve never been more sure of anything in my entire life.” I say and reach out to hug him. He sighs, his smile getting a tiny bit bigger as he crawls onto my lap, letting me wrap my arms around me as he straddles me, wrapping his arms around my neck.

“I love you so much, Hazza.” Louis murmurs, his face buried in my shoulder as I hold him tightly to me, never wanting to let go of him.

“Not as much as I love you, Lou.”

A/N: I know I said that I would upload this quickly and I tried I swear except this chapter was really, really hard to write. I’ve got like seven different versions and they were all really bad and I’m sorry! But I really hope you like this.

Alright, now I’ve apologised, I would like to thank every single person who commented and voted and actually read this story! It means so much to me. Like, I’ve read all the comments you guys have left and I’m like ‘PEOPLE ACTUALLY LIKE MY WRITING!! PEOPLE ACTUALLY WANT ME TO KEEP WRITING!!’ I just, I’ve always thought that I’m a horrible writer and that I’m wasting my time uploading stuff on fan fiction sites and that no one wants to read something a stupid girl like me writes. But then I see these comments and I’m like, crying because people have actually read everything I’ve uploaded and they like it! I just… oh my god. Thank you all so much! It means so much to me!

Alright, I’m crying now… um, anyway… hope you enjoyed this chapter. Hopefully I’ll have the next up soon. Love you guys.