Seventeen: Unexpected Family

11

Seokmin

I knew i was unconscious. I think? I mean, I knew I wasn't awake. I remember being in the school bathroom, wanting everything to stop, to just stop for once. I have done nothing to deserve the bullying i got. What I didn't deserve was someone like Soonyoung as my best friend. Yet I betrayed him, I promised him I wouldn't hurt myself anymore, but I sat in that bathroom forgetting everything and let the blood stream down my arm and legs. It hurt, but at the same time it didn't.

I was finally ready to let go, and to stop hurting. I remembers hearing panicked voices just as everything went black.  What I saw next really confused me.

It was school, my home I lived in by myself, and a long glowing road, which looked like it had no end.
I figured if I went towards that road,  it would take me to my final destination. I was about to start walking when someone ran right through me like I was a ghost.

I looked to see Soonyoung, sprinting to the hospital. Curious, I followed my best friend, when Soonyoung was done running, I noticed Jeonghan, Mingyu and Jun there as well. I looked to the door they were all looking at,

"Lee Seokmin"

ah.  I took one last look at my friends, flashing then a smile they wouldn't be able to see.

"i'm sorry I didn't say goodbye Soonie"

Soonyoung was crying and it did break my heart. Soonyoung will be ok soon, I wasn't someone who soonyoung would dwell on. I decided it was time, I wanted to never open my eyes again honestly.

I made my way out and found the glowing road once again as I began to walk down it.

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after what felt like days of walking, I started to hear people.

"Seokmin please wake up."

Jeonghan? I turned in circles but couldn't find the source of the voice.  I than began to hear other voices, voices I didn't recognize.

"He will wake up Hannie, i'm sure of it"
"thanks Seungcheol."

Seungcheol? .
I began to feel uneasy. I looked back at the road, and I began to contiune walking down it.

I felt himself getting weaker the more I walked, but I'm still moved forward.  The voices began to flood my head

"Seokmin, It's soonyoung. Please wake up and meet your new friends."

new friends?

"hi Seokmin, you don't me that well but I'm Minghao. In the past week and a half Soonyoung and the others have told us a lot about you. please wake up"

I stopped as I listened to everyone talking, remembering A kid named Wonwoo with a deep voice, another one named Chan who sounded super young. I recognized the voices of Vernon and Seungkwan already being acquainted with them. I also recognized the voices of Jun and Mingyu, two people I spent a lot of time with. I also realized Seungcheol and his friends were there, I heard Jihoon introduce himself, but one was missing.

I never ever knew why I was mesmerized by Joshua. Captain of the soccer team, strong, nice, loved by everyone. Joshua and I were friends, we talked quite often and I usually told him some stupid jokes just so I could see Joshua smile.

one time I heard joshua talking to some dudes in the hallway, "ew, gay? I like girls, who would like boys?"

" I heard that seokmin kid has a fat crush on you lmao"

"oh gross"

I was around the corner and stopped when I heard the familiar voice. That day hurt me, that was two days before the incident. I didn't talk to Joshua in those few days, but I would catch him looking at me.