Seventeen: Unexpected Family

06

WARNING MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, DEPRESSION, SELF HARM, SEZIURES, HOSPITALS ETC,

Minghao-
If I could describe the atmosphere right now, i'd say, Calming. The situation with Seokmin happened about three days ago, he still hasn't woken up. Slowly i've started to notice things I hadn't before.

When we first came back from school with mingyu and the others, Jeonghan and Seungcheol were surprised. Wonwoo and Jeonghan had gone off to talk about Seokmin, while the rest of us just kinda awkwardly spread ourselves outside of Seokmins hospital room.

There was a weird tension between Soonyoung and Joshua. Jun looked completely drained and mingyu looked well, dead. I had noticed, although the older had been doing his homework, he had dozed off or caught himself lacking while trying to complete it. I could only imagine what him and the others must going through.

Chan, Wonwoo, Joshua, Seungcheol and I continued to go to school, the others were allowed administrative leave to watch over Seokmin since he didn't have family, which I discovered after Jeonghan felt he needed to explain the situation to everyone.

During school the rest of us seemed to be getting closer.

In second period, I couldn't help but space out. What will happen if Seokmin doesn't wake up?
"How are you feeling?"
I jolted. Joshua was standing next to my desk, looking down at me with the same expression he had continued to wear since that day. He looked rough, his hair wasn't completely brushed, his uniform was all over the place and he had huge dark circles under his eyes. All I could do was smile at him, hoping in some way it would send him a signal, a signal to rest up. He glanced back at his loud friend group. Jihoon seemed slightly off but he was still cussing out Vernon and Seungkwan, but Seungcheol didn't seem any better than Joshua had.
"wanna sit here instead?"
After noticing that Joshua probably didn't want to have to try and pretend to be ok, he accepted my offer and plopped himself next to me, soon, Seungcheol sitting himself in front of us.

Class was finally over, but I had noticed Joshua and Seungcheol were passed out on their desks. I felt my eyes sting with tears, they are all seriously so miserable. I noticed Jihoon, Vernon and Seungkwan (LOUDLY) making their way over here.
"shh! they are sleeping!!"
I tried my best to be loud yet quiet to not disturb the sleeping teenagers, the group of friends just gave me a funny look.
"are you all that stupid!?" ..."no offense"
"i'm sorry s i r what?"
"have you all seriously not noticed how tired they have been? do you even know why?"
Jihoon nodded, he only knew because that day he stopped Soonyoung from murdering someone.

Seungkwan and Vernon left the class and Jihoon stayed behind to help me complete Joshua and Seungcheol's homework for them.
"In case you were wondering, I have noticed"
Jihoon had a gloomy expression planted on his face.
"they are my best friends, how could I not notice the sudden change"
I could only nod.
"hey, can i ask you something?"
Jihoon glanced up from the desk, observing me carefully before nodding his head yes.
"how do you and Soonyoung know each other..?"
I could see him tense  at Soonyoungs name.
"sorry that was probably too personal-"
"me and Soonyoung dated in Middle school."

Jihoon was staring down at his lap as he spoke.
"i seriously loved Soonyoung, but I made a dumb mistake and ruined everything. "
Jihoon stopped as he looked at me, eyeing me carefully.
"huh, I don't even know why i'm telling you this, you just seem so trusting and I've never been asked about it"
"it's ok, I can tell it's something personal. I won't tell anyone"

Finally Jihoon and I had woken up Joshua and Seungcheol.  We made our way to the cafeteria, spotting Wonwoo and chan sitting silently at the table. I looked at the three friends standing behind me, all three a different level of tired, upset, and confused.
" Do you guys want to just sit with us today?"
The three boys looked up, at each other and with a small smile they nodded. We made our way over and Wonwoo and Chan greeted us as we sat.  Joshua had stuffed his face with food and it's the happiest i've seen him this whole week.
"holy shit breathe you fucking pig"
"shut the hell up Jihoon your -4'3 you don't need as much food as me"
"omg no way your actually that short"
"Chan are you literally fucking stupid?"