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joe x reader

[y/n]

joe forgot about our plans again tonight. you have no idea how awkward it is when you show up to your boyfriend's house to hang out but he isn't there so you just sit there and hang out with his mom because he won't pick up his phone. like how is she supposed to take our relationship seriously if she never sees us together because he is constantly blowing me off?

she told me that i could stay as long as i wanted, so i spent most of the night up in joe's room, lying on the bed and watching tv. i wandered around his room and found a picture of the two of us on his nightstand from homecoming last year. it made me smile but at the same time i realized we were so much happier then.

i heard the front door open and close around four o'clock in the morning, so i sat down on the bed and waited for him to come up to his room. he finally made it through the door and found me sitting there, avoiding his eyes.

"hey baby, what're you doing here? it's late," he sat down on the bed in front of me, and i tried my best to hold back tears. "where were you?" my voice was shaking. "i was over at chase's house playing video games. have you been here all night?" wow he really doesn't remember. "uh yeah... we were supposed to hang out today," i dropped his gaze as realization hit his eyes.

"oh. i'm sorry baby, i completely forgot. i'll make it up to you though, i promise," he stood up and began to change his shirt, as if this was supposed to be the end of the conversation. "joe, do you not want to be with me anymore? is our relationship boring you?" he looked at me, totally confused and oblivious. "no baby, why would you think that?" i laughed lightly.

"because this is the fourth time we were supposed to hang out this month and you forgot and got home late. i just want some validation that you're in this relationship as much as i am. because lately i've been pretty lonely," i felt tears fall from my eyes but quickly wiped them away.

"baby i just forgot, it's not that deep," he chuckled lightly, and it made me angry. "joe it is that deep! i feel like i'm not a priority in your life anymore! i don't ask for much from you but to be there for me when i'm hurting and to pay a tiny bit of attention to me. i have never had an issue with you going out and hanging out with the boys, but i can't take being alone anymore! i love you with all of my heart and soul and i'm lucky if you text me once a week anymore!" i stood from the bed and the tears were free falling now.

"i don't know what you want from me y/n! i just forgot! i'm sorry that you don't have a lot of friends to hang out with so you feel lonely without me! but i don't understand why that is my fault!" he shouted at me, which doesn't happen very often.

"joe i don't have a lot of friends like you because you know how much it takes for me to open up to someone! but i have friends! i just don't make plans with those friends on nights that i am supposed to be hanging out with my boyfriend! i set time aside for you and i don't understand why you can't do the same for me! like god! don't you see that this isn't healthy?! i never see you joe! i've spent more time with your mom in the last two months than you!" i grabbed his sweater that i wore here and opened the door.

"where are you going?!" he tried to close the door, causing me to whip around and face him. "i'm going home joe! i can't do this anymore! i love you, more than anything in this world and with everything i have! but until you can love me enough to actually see me, i can't do this anymore!" i walked up to him, grabbed his face between my hands and kissed him. i poured as much passion into it as i could, knowing it may be the last one for a while, maybe even ever. 

"i love you joe. but i can't keep living like this," i turned and walked out the door and began my walk home. i let the pent up sobs leave my body, knowing that i just walked out on the love of my life and he may never come back to me.