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tayler x reader part two

[tayler]

i woke up to my forehead pounding and sunlight shining through my curtains. i groaned and rolled over, noticing that y/n wasn't there. i briefly remember the events of last night, but not enough to remember where she was going or what our fight was about. being drunk for multiple days straight really puts a damper on your memory.

i rolled over and grabbed my phone off of the side table, but before i could call y/n i found a note that was addressed to me tucked into the top drawer. it was written in y/n's small dainty handwriting. i tore it open and began to read.

dear tayler,

i'm writing this on day four of you not coming home. i've been basically counting the hours at this point, hoping it would make you come home faster. but sadly those mind games aren't working, and i cannot manifest you wanting to come home.

tito and i miss you. he's been crying since you left, and honestly so have i. i never want to be that type of girlfriend that isn't okay with her boyfriend going out and having fun without her, but i just miss us. i miss you, our hugs and kisses. i miss snuggling in the bed with tito and watching corny rom-coms.

i'm writing you this letter in case we get in the fight that i'm assuming we'll get in when you get home, whenever that is. but if you're reading it, i've already left the apartment with tito.

i love you, more than i have ever loved anyone in my entire life. but this partying addiction has gotten out of control, and i can no longer be with someone who cannot have a hold on their life. i can't sit around and cry, waiting for you to call or walk through that door. i can't call and beg you to come home, crying out for help and that i need you.

i love you, but this may have to be the end for us baby. you can't own up to your mistakes because you're never sober enough to see them. maybe it's because i'm not strong enough to deal with this. all i know is that i need you to want to get better and change, not only for us but for yourself too.

this is goodbye, i love you tayler holder.

y/n

i felt hot tears streaming down my face as i ran down the stairs. i spotted most of the boys asleep on my living room floor. i took off into the kitchen and rounded up every bottle of alcohol that we have, dumping it all down the sink and smashing the empty bottles.

eventually the noise woke all of the boys and they came to find out what was going on. they saw me smashing the bottles and crying and they all rushed towards me.

"tayler buddy, what are you doing?" bryce grabbed me in a tight hug as the rest of the guys started to clean up the mess. "y/n is gone. she won't take me back until i change, and i need her back now. so the changing has to start now," i choked on my words, struggling to say her name.

"okay buddy, we'll help you change and get rid of all of the boos in the house. you go upstairs and shower and we'll head over to hype to see y/n once we have this taken care of," he guided me up the stairs and turned on the shower for me, before retreating back down the stairs to help the boys clean up my mess.

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[y/n]

last night was rough. between tito and i there was a lot of nonstop crying. avani tried to help the best she could, but i was really a basket case.

tayler had called me a slut, told me that i was carrying disease, and that i was a control freak. all of these things, when all i wanted was for him to come home safe to his girlfriend and his puppy.

i sat up on the couch in the hype house living room and hugged tito tightly to my chest. i haven't put him down since we got here, because i just need something that loves me. avani came out of the kitchen with a banana and told me i had to eat something. but the minute i swallowed it, it just all came back up again. i was literally ill over what happened between tayler and i.

"y/n, you have guests," i looked at kouvr in confusion, considering i don't live here. any guest for me would go straight to the apartment. "tell them i'm not here," i groaned into tito's fur, holding him close to my face. "y/n?" my eyes snapped open and i saw tayler standing in the doorway, all of the boys around him and a cut on his right cheekbone.

i didn't say anything while he stood there and looked at me, i couldn't.

"y/n i'm so sorry. please, please talk to me. the boys told me all of the asshole shit that i did last night. i have no words to tell you how sorry i am," tears fell from his eyes and i remained completely still and stern-faced, not letting him crack me. tito whimpered in my arms, wanting to run to his daddy, but i wouldn't give tayler that win.

"y/n i want to change for you. i'm an idiot, and i didn't even notice my self and relationship-destructive behaviour. this morning when you weren't there when i woke up, and i read your letter, i felt so empty baby. you are my life, and i'm so sorry that i've done such a shitty job of showing that lately.

"i'm done with boos, and partying, at least until i can get it under control and get my life and this relationship back on track. this morning i woke up and got rid of all of the boos in our apartment. i got rid of anything that would tempt me to stray away from what is most important, which is you, tito and our future together," this sparked my interest, because i never thought i would see the day that tay gave up drinking.

"you told me that you wanted me to fess up to my shit, well... i fucked up y/n. i fucked up big time. i ruined our relationship and i went out and acted like a complete fuckin douchebag while you were at home being an amazing mother to tito and and amazingly faithful girlfriend to your asshole of a boyfriend. this is never what i wanted for you y/n.

"but i'm here. i'm here to beg you to forgive me and to take back my life and the person who gives my life a meaning and gives me a reason to wake up in the morning. i want to lay in bed and watch rom-coms with tito, and go skating at 2 AM. i wanna make pizza in the early hours of the morning and accidentally set the smoke alarm off from burning it. i want to be y/n and tayler again. there is nothing more i could want for my life. because i love you y/f/n, and i'm not ready to let you go," he finished his speech.

at this point i had endless silent tears flowing down my face and i couldn't hold them back anymore. tito also finally slipped from my grip and went tumbling towards tayler, barking in happiness that his daddy was here. i still didn't know what to say, but i knew that i wanted to be with tayler for the rest of forever.

i stood from the couch, my legs trembling to match the rest of my body. tayler stood up from playing with tito and took a step towards me.

"don't you ever act like an asshole and leave me ever again. you're not allowed to have sleepovers for at least a month, you understand me young man? i'm not sharing you for at least a month," he nodded, his large and gorgeous smile spreading across his face. he ran to me and picked me up, allowing me to wrap my legs around his waist. he placed small kisses all over my neck and shoulder.

"i love you y/n," he pulled back and looked me right in the eyes. his beautiful eyes were sparkling, and i had missed staring into them every day. "i love you too asshole," he laughed and kissed me passionately, savouring every second of it. i had definitely missed this.

once we pulled back and he put me down, he bent over and picked up tito off the ground, and wrapped his free arm around me.

"let's take this small holder family home,"