Just Hold On (Book 2 of The Jaythan Series)

9. The fear of love isn't about fearing love, it's about fearing yourself

W/N Okay, I lied. Nathan will not have any dreams but Jay will have 3 dreams! If it gets confusing or you have a question, ask me about it. This is a confusing bundle of chapters for me too. The title is 'The fear of love isn't about fearing love, it's about fearing yourself.'

(Jay's POV)

 I look around to see I'm in pitch black darkness. Where am I? I wonder as a light flickers on above a tall, immaculate mirror. 

        "Welcome," a booming voice fills the room. I attempt to question the man of wonder to no avail. I just want to know who he is!

       "I am simply something that will either save you or destroy." The oddly familiar voice replies, causing dozens of question to form in my mind. What am I supposed to call him?

      "I am a complex side of your mind, therefore I have no true name." the voice, Obama I think, answers. 

        "I am just loving these straight forward answers." I utter, the sarcasm dripping of my... VOICE! I said something!

        "Yes, now shut up and listen. There is a reason you can't just ask questions precariously around here. You have three dreams that represent your three greatest fears. You get one question per dream that I will always answer. When you ask a question the dream ends and goes on to the next or you can save your questions and replace them with destruction of one of these catastrophes. You can prevent permanent damage from the third dream by stopping the first two dreams on your own accord. I believe that is it so-oh wait! The first fear is the fear of love. And remember, The fear of love isn't about fearing love, it's about fearing yourself and fearing for yourself." the Obama-like voice instructed me.

        "Wait, I... don't... understand." I yell, quite confused. Nothing. He's gone. I walk around the barren room avoiding the only object in here, the mirror. I slowly peer into the reflective device and find Nathan looking back at me in a white suit. I feel something tickle the heals of my feet, my body sinking slightly into what seems to be sand. 

        I look back to see a calm ocean scene then I look to Nathan, who's playing with a beautiful chrysanthemum. 

        "Jay," he calls out even though his lips are perfectly closed.

        "Nathan," I gasp, slightly taken aback by his way of talking.

        "Say it!" he hisses, his mouth still closed shut.

        "I don't know what to say." I reply.

        "James! Say 'I do'!" Nathan growls.

        "I can't. I'm just not ready for that." I say panicking.

        "Then we are over. You are over!" he yells, causing me to jump. I feel something familiar tickle the back of my neck so I turn around instinctively, where I see Nathan standing in front of me with a dagger in his tiny hands.

        "Nathan," I whisper, knowing what comes next.

        "How could YOU! You lied, Jay! You said you LOVED ME, but you don't." he hysterically screamed, holding out the last word shakily. 

        "I don't know why, but you USED ME! *hiccup* you don't love me!" he sobbed, tears streaming down his porcelain face.

        "Nathan, it's okay. Just calm down." I coo, hoping to calm down my hysteric boyfriend.

        "No, it's not, You broke my heart and stabbed me in my back! And for that, I'm gonna stab you in your face!" he growled, sounding like an entirely different person... sounding like my father.

        He lunged for me, sending the dagger directly towards my head. I stare at his chest, lowering myself in surrender. I notice the delicate flower Nathan wears begins to close up the closer he gets to me. That's it, the flower is the key to what shuts down the dream.

        As he gets closer I reach out and grab the little white flower, just in time to get a good gash running down the side of my face, barely missing my left eye. His body turns to dust, entering the white rose, opening it up. The force pushes me back into the mirror. 

        Suddenly, everything turns black. I try to move but seem to be trapped in in some tiny closet. No, I'm trapped in a mirror. After a while of maneuvering I manage to turn around in time to see the last person I wanted to see. My father...

W/N whoa! Jay has some daddy issues, what do you think of that one? I don't know Jay's father so I don't actually know what he's like so he's gonna be an absolute jerk.

this is my 10th chapter in this book and I'm SO happy. Tell me what you want me to do and I will do it. Unless it involves breaking the law or money.... Love you guys SOOO much. You guys are a bunch of little blessings.Xx 

I would LOVE if you could suggest different artist to me, or a song you want for the next chapter. I know nothing about music outside of The WANTED's tiny "circle"  thank y'all!