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jaden hossler pt.2

"YOU GUYS HAD SEX!" griffin yells while walking out of the bedroom as jaden slowly stepped backwards.

"now who said too much?" anthony cockily smirks.
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"look he wasn't even my first..." i blurt out.

"he wasn't your first ?"                "i wasn't your first?"
griffin yells.                                                    jaden yells.

"this is getting good!" anthony chuckles while laying back on the couch.

"no and no but that's not important.  what's important is jaden isn't dead and you know, yay!" i clap.

"who was your first?" kaden asks while crossing his arms.

"guys let's just chill, give her a break," josh says.

"why do you care josh ?" griffin asks.

"i don't, i just thinks she's a grown girl and she can do what she wants so she's with jaden now and he isn't her first, okay move on," josh uncomfortably says.

"dude why are you being so- wait was he your first ? josh ?"  jaden asks.

"no- yes?" i answer nervously.

"woah what the fuck, why didn't you-" jaden began.

"i gotta go," josh quickly said, "treat her right k."

with that josh left and everyone kind of stood there in shock.

"jaden can we-" i start.

"i'm gonna head home, i'll call you later or something," he sadly smiled before leaving.

"ha," i let out before sitting next to anthony.

"maybe i should-" he started.

"don't you dare," i cut him off.

"what just- what?" griffin said while sitting next to me.

i leaned my head on his shoulder and i questioned the past year of my life.

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"maybe...maybe we shouldn't," i started as josh was kissing my neck.

he looked up and said, "if you really want me to stop, i'll stop."

"yes- no?" i questioned.

"baby, it's you to you but i'm not gonna continue unless you want me to," he smiled.

"no I want to," i said, allowing him to continue.

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"it all happened so quick and way before me and jaden," I tell them.

"then why didn't you say that before he left?" anthony asks.

"i tried! and then josh left like that and i don't even understand what he said because it was just a fling and he was the one who wanted us to  agreed to keep it as that and he ended it. i mean it only happened like-" i begin to ramble.

"LALALALA" griffin cuts me off.

"i'm gonna head home, i love y'all," i tell them, excusing myself.

i go home and think about things before facetiming jaden. after getting no answer, i receive a 'busy.' text and lay on my bed. my phone rings and i quickly answer and realize it's josh.

me, josh
oh hey...
hey
what was that earlier?
that's why i called..so..um...i've been in love with you since before we had sex and finding out that you and jaden were together hurt a lot and that's why i left. i said what i said to jaden because i ended things between us and never explained why and now i don't have that chance.
josh i don't-
i know you probably don't feel the same way and i know you're happy with jaden and i'm not calling to ruin that but at the same time i want you. i want you and i don't know if you are maybe having second thoughts ? what i'm saying is you have a choice and don't say anything right now just think okay? okay goodnight.

end of call

with no doubt in my mind i wanted jaden, but i wasn't so sure he wanted me right now. i decided some sleep would be nice and called it a night after a quick shower.

the next morning i tried calling jaden again but was declined. i did a quick workout and showered before grabbing some breakfast and driving to jaden's.

i knocked repeatedly until he answered.

"i'm not really in the mood to talk right now okay y/n? I have been avoiding your calls for a reason and i just really don't wanna- "

"stop. you're mad i didn't tell you about josh. i get that. it wasn't a secret it just didn't come up. i'm not going to casually say, hey so way before me and you, me and your best friend had a fling. either way it should've been brought up and i'm sorry. he told me i had a choice to make and without a doubt in my mind there was no choice because it was always you. so i'll give you space, whatever you need, but don't think that he's in the picture or anything."

"okay, thanks," he said before shutting the door leaving me stunned.

tears began to prick my eyes as i walk back to my car confused and upset. did I lose him forever ?