Ali pov
"They.. they said it themselves... They didn't want you. They never cared for you. They lied. They lied to you! They used you and threw you away!. "
"Your weak and unreliable. Your an idiot for thinking that they cared. Not even your own father cared."
"It's...its thei- no. No. It's not their fault. They dont know how you felt. They didn't know they ruined your life. Your not ment to live. No one will care if you die. They won't even notice your gone" those where the thoughts that were running through my head in the Tekno lab at the academy. I purposely volunteered to go first and immediately left training afterwards.
I grabbed a razor that was in my pocket and undid my sleeves and started cutting. "Blood...its pretty"I said without realizing I'm smiling and started going deeper into my skin so deep I could feel my bone.
I redid my sleeve and headed to the medbay. Agent Geetha saw me "Ali,why did you leave so early?were you fixing something?" She asked. I couldn't lie to her and showed her my bloody razor and my sleeve. Her reaction was a mix of suprise anger and sadness. She started crying. I tried looking away "Ali,why?"she asked and pulled me to the medbay.
She sat me down and started putting an ointment in my wounds "Ali why didn't you tell us? These are deep cuts" she said and started rapping my arm. "You... Aren't I just a burdon to everyone?" I looked at her "what? No! Ali of course not!" She said in shock that I would think that. "I... I've been wanting to quit MATA for a while now, because... Your better off without me" I said she putted a hand on my cheek. "Ali,don't quit because we still nee-"I swatted her hand away and stood up "NO! YOUR LYING! YOU NEVER NEEDED ME SINCE I BECAME AN AGENT!I DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE!NO ONE NEEDS ME!" i yelled. It was so loud that it could be heard outside the medbay. I immediately ran out of the medbay and started exiting the academy. I bumped into the mentors and my...old friends.. when I bumped into someone and fell.
"Ali are you ok?" His..voice its familiar... He reached his hand out but I swatted it away and ran. I didn't care who it was. No one wants me here. "Ali!" He yelled. I recognized it." It can't be him. It can't. He's dead." I mumbled and stopped started sobbing.
He came up to me and turned me to his direction I tried looking away but I couldn't "Ali what's wrong?" I still couldn't believe it. "Agent Zain,y-your alive?" I said and backed away a few steps. He just nodded and motioned me to follow him.
We arrived to where we first met and climed up the tower and motioned me to sit down. "What's wrong Ali?" He asked again "I want to quit. I don't want to be an agent anymore. They're better off here than me"I said "Ali. Don't say that. We still need you" he said. This pissed me off and I stood up "no. No you don't. Why do you even bother keeping me? Is this a punishment for rebelling against MATA?" I said and started walking away. He immediately stood up and grabbed me by the arm. I flinched in response and he immediately noticed it and undid my sleeve and the bandage and saw my fresh cuts. "Ali...why?" Why didn't you tell us?" He said. It was the exact thing agent Geetha said.
"Heh, y'know what?" And pulled my arm away from him and grabbed my razor and putted it close to my neck "I'm better off dead" and cutted my neck. Deep. And fell to the ground. But he caught me. My vision was getting blurry. he was muttering something when my ears started ringing "this is it. I wont feel pain again" I thought as I felt strong winds hitted my side and slowly lost consciousness.
End POV
Zain pov
I was looking at Ali's cuts when he pulled it away "heh,y'know what?" He said and grabbed a razor. I was frozen. I knew exactly what he was going to do by I couldn't move. He pointed the razor on his neck "I'm better off dead" he said as he sliced his neck and almost fell but I catches him "Ali! Ali!" I yelled but he was loosing consiouseness. I rushed him to the medbay. Not caring for their reaction to see me alive.
