Before You Go • VHOPE [On Hold]

Chapter 5: Scent

As death draws nearer,

I realize there are so many regrets.

Things I could have done differently,

Things that I do right now,

I wish I had one more chance.

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Hoseok spent the day alone. Not like he was complaining, but his eyes did notice Taehyung hanging out with some girls.

He was alone when eating his lunch that day. Or so he thought. But then a Taehyung with messed up hair suddenly clattered his tray down, panting, "Hoseok. Sorry." He apologized and took a seat.

"Why?" Hoseok asked, a strong smell of girl's perfume hitting his nose. What an unpleasantly sweet scent.

"I lost track of time." Taehyung smiled, charms oozing out. Hoseok wanted to puke at that.

"Sure. Horniness before hunger." Hoseok rolled his eyes.

Taehyung gasped as he realized Hoseok figured out and then pouted, "Iㅡ"

"It's fine.. you don't have to explain anything."

Taehyung pouted like a child but didn't say anything. He silently ate his lunch, but looked at Hoseok every while and then who was slowly eating and mostly breathing.

"Hey, Hoseok?"

"Hm?"

"I'm sorry for what I said yesterday. I didn't mean to be ignorant. It's just, I want to get to know you better.."

Hoseok glanced up at him and nodded as he turned his head back down, picking at his food. "It's fine. I was.. actually.. I get frustrated a lot lately.. so. Well, I should apologize too."

"Then do it." Taehyung demanded, giggling.

Hoseok squinted his eyes at him but chuckled, "I just changed my mind."

Taehyung pouted, then grinned, "Okay then. What do you say? Wanna hang out after school today?"

"Why? Don't you have somewhere to be making out with a girl?"

Taehyung raised his brows, amused. He flirtily put his elbow on the table and rested his chin on top, leaning in a little. "Why do you assume it's a girl? What if I was making out with a boy?"

"Wh-what-" Hoseok blushed, flustered as he heard him. "Are- are you gay?"

Taehyung chuckled, "Am I the ignorant one, really? You assume just as much as me."

"I-" Hoseok felt a little strange and uncomfortable at the thought. Not like it mattered what Taehyung's sexuality was. What actually put him off was.. he didn't see it coming.

"No. It was a girl." Taehyung lazily leaned back, brushing his hair. "It's just.. someone I've been seeing lately."

Hoseok didn't ask anything else. He wasn't sure if there was anything else to ask. He gulped down the tension in his throat and breathed, his body already feeling tired.

The bell rang signalling the end of their break. Taehyung had already finished his food but Hoseok still had quite a few leftovers, even though he was eating from over half an hour.

They returned back to their classes and joined the lessons for the rest of the day.

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"Let's get you to a party today!" Taehyung said as he walked with Hoseok.

"I'm not a party person, so I'll pass."

"Remember you haven't yet apologized for being angry at me." Taehyung teased.

"I don't owe you one now, though.. I can just walk off."

"But aren't we friends?!"

"We are?" Hoseok raised his brows in surprise.

Taehyung smiled, "I thought I told you I want to get to know you better."

"I don't do friendships anymore.."

"Why?"

"I don't find a point in it.." Hoseok said sadly.

Taehyung turned around to face him, haltering their steps. Hoseok flinched and blinked in surprise as he stared at the guy questioningly.

"Then I'll make see you see the point." Taehyung grinned.

Hoseok hated it. He felt the anger rising up in him. How can it be so easy for him. But his anger was more because of his frustration. Frustration of not being able to stop the flow of time so he could live. He felt like crying, but he couldn't possibly let the tears invade his eyes. Not in front of Taehyung, no.

"Even if it was my last day on earth. I think I would have liked to spend it with friends I love before I go," Taehyung said calmly.

Hoseok's heart fell at that, he looked up. Taehyung doesn't know him, but yet, his hope somewhat seemed to confuse Hoseok.

"So I really don't get it when you say you want to be alone. What if it was really your last day on earth? Would you want it to end sadly? Or have it end in a way that leaves no regrets?"

Hoseok felt a lump in his throat. He gazed down at the ground, thinking and breathing before he glanced back up, nodding.

"But, you'll always have regrets. Something that you didn't do, or something that you did but went wrong,"

"Yes." Taehyung smiled softly and grabbed his hand, "But that doesn't matter as long as you're alive. Having regrets doesn't mean to stop living altogether." He smiled, "They are good people. And if I see you stir, I'll be beside you all the time. So, let's try this out." He chimed as he lead the way.

Hoseok, still confused as his secluded beliefs of shutting himself in clashed with the thought of being happy.

I remember the time I used to smile and laugh so much. The nostalgia is too great. But I don't think those days can ever come againㅡ Now that I'm about to meet the end. 

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A/N:  I know you can't relate me to me because I didn't use to update regularly, at least not in 2019 😂 But let's hope we'll possibly get regular updates since I have half the chapters drafted already *-*

Also, I'm about to request it for the first timeㅡ please vote uwu I yet don't understand the purpose of it but still..

- Sam ♡