Joel feels super happy. He's going to start a family as soon as possible, something he's wanted for a while, and his boyfriend is better than before.
While Dave is far from fixed, and his mind continues to try to guilt him, he's so much happier. He talks to Marzia daily, telling her everything, and she does the same. He has Joel to confide in as well. A huge weight was lifted by speaking to him about everything, and now they've made the decision to have children, he's a different man to the one he was mere weeks ago. It's a visible change too, not only in actions but appearance. After weeks of a bad diet, he picks back up his vegan habits and his body fills back out, the acne he gained from the food and stress clears, and his skin looks better than ever. His hair becomes softer, smoother, silkier naturally. His smile returns, eyes light up, and there's a definite bounce in his step. He was glowing.
After almost a full month of this decision to have a family Marzia tells him this.
"You're gorgeous, so healthy, you're positively glowing!" She beams at him. He blushes and looks down at a thread he's pulling in his shirt.
"No I'm not. I look the same as always." He mumbles.
"No, you don't. Follow me." She leads him to a massive mirror. "I don't know why we have this either. But look!" She points out all the changes to Dave who giggles awkwardly.
"Hey, who knows, maybe it's a mother's glow." He laughs, joking but Marzia goes serious.
"Maybe it is- oh my god! Do you think....?"
"No." Dave shakes his head. "I'm not. I can tell you how. I've not had any signs, other than this so- called glow."
"All pregnancies are different. Come on Dave, do a test just for me?" She pouts and he realises he can't win.
"Fine. But I'm not."
He ends up really scared while they wait for the timer to go off indicating the test has his results.
'What if I am?' He thinks worriedly. 'What if I am? Is now really the best time for kids - I thought we'd have longer before I- what if Joel is angry Marzia knew before him again? What if, what if, what if...:
The alarm goes off, throwing him back to reality. He's shaking and Marzia takes his hand as he shuts off the alarm. He smiles at her in thanks, takes a deep breath and flips the test.
It's negative.
Dave isn't ready for the impact this has. It is like a blow to the stomach, and he falls to his knees, staring at the single line in the tiny screen.
'Idiot. Why did you ever tell Joel? He'll never really love you after what you did. Of course it's negative, you could never get pregnant again. And when Joel realises he'll leave you to find some girl to have his babies. The test was obviously negative after what you did to your last baby. Baby killer, baby killer, baby kill-"
Dave doesn't realise Marzia has left until she comes bursting in the door, Joel hot on her heels. He tries to say he's fine, but he can't breathe. He's shaking and crying, trying to get air but failing, panic rising and feeling dizzier.
Joel drops to his knees beside him, and put Dave's hand on his chest, trying to get him to follow his breathing but Dave doesn't and then-
He blacks out.
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FanfictionWhen Dave finds himself in an difficult situation he makes the decision he's known since he was a teen. But was this decision right? How will his actions effect him , his relationship, his life? With a mind filled with regret and a body full of not...
