Broken

Chapter 13

Ahsoka pov

After the doctors appointment we had to go to the front desk to get some meds to heal my foot. Once we got those we decided to leave. We walked back to my quarters. Once we got there Rex locked the door behind us.

"Alright ahsoka, you gotta take this medicine" he said filling surenge with the medicine. "But it's disgusting. I've had this before. It's flavored like strawberries but is disgusting." I said. "Soka you sound like a five year old" he said moving the surenge to my mouth,

I close my mouth shut. He prods it with the surenenge. I keep it closed. He takes it back. "Here comes the airplane" he said doing it in a motion like he was feeding a child. I start laughing  and he puts the medicine in my mouth. I glare at him. Refusing to swallow.

"Ahsoka swallow, you gotta take the meds" he said putting the countainer back in the small fridge. I shake my head no,

"Ahsoka no kisses or hugs or anything from me, until you swallow those meds" he said. I swallow it and give a disgusted face. "That doctor is rude" I said mad. "Why?" He asked laughing a little.

"Gave me stupid medicine" I said. Rex laughed a little. "Hey soka, I'm gonna go get us food ok?" He said walking to the door. I nod. He leaves the room and closed the door behind him.

I walk Over to the edge of my bed and sit down at it. I put my head in my hands as a tear falls. I was just faking a smile. I couldn't let Rex see how I was truly feeling at the minute.

Krells words continue to echo through my head. Brat, worthless. I hear his horrible voice say. I feel more tears fall. Before I know it I'm walking to the bathroom. I close the door behind me. I look around and spot rexs small shaving knife. I grab it, my hands shaking. I pull my glove down on my wrist.

I lightly press the knife to my under arm skin, not cutting yet. My hand was shaking. Am I really doing this? His words continued echoing through my mind.

Worthless
Brat
Unspecial
Unskilled
Unworthy
Weak
Disappointment
Waste of flesh
Not worthy of being a Jedi

I feel more tears drop as I press the knife in. Leaving a cut on my arm. I wince in a small pain. The feeling was strange, it wasn't that painful. Yes it hurt, but I liked it. It made the voices in my head get quieter. I press the knife again and do another cut. I couldn't control my thoughts.

You'd be better off dead
Rex dosn't care about you, your just his commander
No one could ever love you
You should just die

I keep on cutting until the voices are gone. I wince as I wash my hand under the sink. I look away from all the blood. I hear a door open and I quickly wash the knife and pull the glove on to hide my cuts. Rex can't know.

I walk out the bathroom to see Rex sitting on the bed. Two food trays on my desk. I smile at him. He looks at me worried. "Are you ok soka? Your looking a little pale" he said. Shoot loss of blood side effect. I smile at him.

"I'm doing great" I said smiling. Shoot, too happy. He looks at me strange. "Ok" he said skeptically. I smile and grab a food tray. I sit on my bed and start eating.

Rex gets up and grabs his. He sits back down. I start to eat my food. After a few minutes I place the tray down. "I'm done" I said. He looked at my tray. "Soka you barely ate anything" he said. "Just not hungry today" I said lying. "Ok" he said skeptically.

I pull the end of my glove more, hidding the cuts more. He looked at my arm. "What's going on ahsoka?" He asked looking up at me now. I give a fake smile. "Just upset about krell that's all" I said. He sighs. He puts his food tray on my bedside table and lies down.

He opens his arms motioning for me to be in his arms. I lay down next to him. Resting my head on his chest. He holds me close and kisses the top of my forehead. "I'm sorry what you went through ahsoka" he said. I shrug my shoulders.

"Thank you for staying so strong, and not doing anything stupid, like hurting your self" he said. I fake smile at him. "Of course" I said. Rex if only you knew what I just did.

He gently starts stroking my lekku. I find my self yawning. "Go to sleep soka, I don't know how your tired, but the doctor did say the medicine would make you tired." He said. I nod and close my eyes. I feel myself fall asleep.

That's the end of the chapter! Comment your thoughts on it. Bye!