Satzu - Backup dancer [COMPLETED]

twenty-first chapter

2yeon travel diary:

Jeongyeon doesn't exactly know about the reasons why Nayeon holds her hand but she doesn't mind it at all. 

Even though she is a bit confused about the elder's behavior. Could it be that Nayeon remembers that her ex girlfriend usually felt extremely uncomfortable at big public places? Jeongyeon kind of wishes, that was the case but at the same time, she shakes her head. That wouldn't be possible, right? 

That's why the taller girl lets herself getting guided by Nayeon who surprisingly seems as if she has a plan about where to go. 

"Don't you think, it was not that clever to send us to Taiwan easily like that without knowing anything about Tzuyu's location?" Jeongyeon suddenly asks, stopping, forcing Nayeon who still holds her hand to pause as well. 

"I don't think, it was not that clever. I think, Sana was extremely idiotic and emotion guided for doing that." Nayeon answers, causing the girl beside her to chuckle. 

"That's not how I wanted to say it-" 

"But that's exactly, what you meant. I know, I know, darling." 

Jeongyeon blushes because of the nickname Nayeon gave her and hides her face in embarrassment. 

Fortunately, Jihyo finds them in that moment. She hugs Jeongyeon and then Nayeon and leads them to the car afterwards. While talking about so much, since she hasn't seen her best friend for months, Jeongyeon scans the streets and houses. 

This would be the hardest task she had ever gotten. 

It's not possible to find a girl in between of the 23 million inhabitants, Taiwan has. It's just impossible. In her thoughts, the short haired girl sends a mute message to the Japanese idol. 

Sana, we'll try but we won't find her.

Sana POV:

I am honestly afraid. I don't know if I am making a mistake. 

I am standing in front of the JYP building, holding Mina's and Momo's hand tightly. 

Even though it's actually not that cold today, I have goosebumps and I pull my coat closer against my body. 

We want to quit. 

I've talked with Mina about this topic for multiple hours and we came to the conclusion that we can't stand working at this company anymore. In the beginning, my intention was to explain my reasons for quitting to her. Turned out that Mina thought about exiting the company as well since she is clearly disgusted by the way JYP planned my whole future for me and even threatened to hurt me. After we informed Momo about our plan, she decided to quit as well. 

Don't get me wrong I love being an idol. I really do but I clearly have enough of pretending being someone I am not. I kind of understand the management for creating a Sana like they did. The Sana, they've created is easier to make money out of than the real Sana and that's what this world is about, right? Money and business. 

I should have known that I would never be able to be myself in this business but I guess, I was too naïve to realize it earlier. 

I take a deep breath. I am glad, I have my best friends by my side. They are not only my mental support, I also am not sure if I would be able to keep standing if they wouldn't hold me from both sides. 

"It's okay, Sana. We'll just go there, tell him that we're out and then, we'll leave again." Momo mumbles to comfort me. But from her lightly trembling voice, I can tell that she is extremely nervous herself. 

Right now, I can totally imagine Tzuyu standing here, in the middle of the glass entrance hall, looking nervously around. Here, she must have asked Jeongyeon for the way towards the JYP office. 

I carefully eye one of the glassy statues which are positioned next to the entry. I come to the conclusion that they are ugly. 

But I don't have time to look at them again since Momo and Mina already guided me towards the lift which is visible inside of the shiny, white wall across from the doorway. A big sign with the letters "VIP" got attached next to it. But honestly, if we weren't VIP people, who would be then? So my friends and I take the lift which covers us from curious glances by workers. 

Arrived in front of the door which leads into our boss' office, I become shy again. Finally, I let go of my friends' supporting hands and knock hesitantly against the door. Trying to let the knocking sound at least rudimentarily confident. No need to report that I failed and it sounded muffled and anxiously against the wooden door. 

I hold in my breath for a second and bring the door handle slowly down. We get greeted by a sun floated room with a desk, covered in paperwork in the center. 

I've been here many times, I guess and I still remember how Mina, Momo and I sat here years ago shily and not sure about our future before JYP explained that we were the trainees the new girl group "J-line" would contain out of. 

I still remember how happy I was and as already said, being an idol has always been fun. Of course at that point I didn't know I would get apportioned a backup dancer who would make me totally confused about my life and feelings. 

The office is empty by the way so I've got time to scan the room a bit more closely. Some documents which describe achievements of girl- and boy groups as well as soloists are pinned against the wall. 

There's also a gallery which shows the idols, working under JYP organized in a time line. One of the newest pictures shows myself right next to my group members smiling happily. I let out a frustrated sigh. 

I am just going to quit here and since my flight to Tainan is already booked since last night, I'll immediately go there. Sounds easy, right? It definitely sounded that way last night when I couldn't sleep and my stomach hurt so much because of frustration and pain of not being able to see her. 

Suddenly, Momo bumps my ribs inconspicuous, causing me to look up and seeing our boss coming into the office, eyeing us suspiciously as if he knows too well that we won't be his idols in about an hour anymore. 

"Momo, Sana, Mina. Tell me why you honestly want to make this mistake of quitting the best job you three would have ever gotten in your life?"

Time skip

I don't really know how we managed to get out of this situation. My mind always gets kind of blank in stressful situations. That was already the case in class tests when I was in middle school and the fact that Momo didn't say anything as well, tells me that her brain functions the same way as mine. 

Mina is the only one who seems to develop unforeseen talents of talking to people in unforeseen situations. I am kind of shocked that our cute and shy maknae managed to bring Momo and me through this. 

That's the reason why I am clinging onto her arm right now, jumping happily while tearing up. 

If people would see us, we wouldn't even have to pretend to be a couple since we already look like one. Because of the realization, I let go of Mina and smile at both of my friends before embracing and waving at them. 

"I love you two so much but, you know, I have a flight to get." With that, I turn around and call a cab by waving exitedly with my arm. 

Tzuyu, just wait for me.