dear diary,
why was today going by so slowly?
i was super excited to sleep so i could get to saturday faster. we even had a pop quiz in science today. it sucked but chanhee helped me do it and it made me feel nice that he cared.
i adored how sweet chanhee is and the way he'd smile when i circled the right answer. he was very smart and even though i knew the answers, i just wanted someway to talk to chanhee without being awkward.
it was really cute when chanhee would talk a lot and i'd sit there listening to him rant, he would get all flustered and ask if he was talking too much and of course he wasn't.
i just didn't know how to open up to him. i wanted to tell him lots of things about myself or just my life in general but i didn't know how to start the conversation.
things were kinda complicated for me. while i was having these huge rush of feelings anytime i was with or saw chanhee, i also had a wave of sadness rush over me when i saw haebyeol.
is she happy with her decision? she's probably mad that i never told her i liked chanhee and i understand that.
— changmin
