dear diary,
i'm only writing again because i couldn't sleep.
it was as if all these unpleasant thoughts were barricading my mind. i couldn't seem to think of anything else.
even when i tried to think of chanhee and his soft brown eyes, i always thought, "he's younghoon's, not mine. he never will be."
it hurt and my heart hurt.
maybe taking a shower and drowning myself in sweets will make me feel...happier.
— changmin
