My Alpha Mate

Chapter 18

I really liked my room, it was really big! The walls were tan and the curtains were brown and grey. The floors were wooden and my bed had a white squishy back board. There was a white chandelier in the middle of the room hanging from the white ceiling.

I wonder if Kate chose the look of the room or mason did. If Mason did, I would be impressed.

I knew mason was a little uneasy about the idea of letting Isabel and I join their pack. It happened all so quickly but I knew that if Isabel or I did anything suspicious, we would probably be kicked out and go back to being rouges.

I don't know if I should go say hi to everyone or not. I mean I know quite a few people here. I wonder how Xavier is doing. When I was younger and in high school we had what people called "a thing" but I don't know.

I sighed and laid on my bed. It was sooooo soft, it was unbelievable. I wrapped myself in the covers and starred out the window on the side of my bed. If I really focused I could see the beautiful pond behind all of the trees.

Was it wrong of me to leave? I could have maybe talked it out with Bradley. I actually kind of miss him.. I miss how he would hold me, hug me, kiss me. I won't have that anymore. Well... I won't have it for a long time because I don't know when I'll find my mate. Right now... mates seem stressful. I loved bradley but then he beat me and cheated on me and then I ran away and now I have a second chance mate.

I gasped and my eyes widen at a thought I had. What if I don't have a second chance mate?! What if I am forever alone?!

I gasp again. I probably am forever alone!! What am I going to do?! Without a mate how am I supposed to have meaning in life, I mean in this pack.. I'm just another pack member. What am I going to do with my life? Shit.. I don't even know.

'Oh shut up, your being dramatic.' my wolf said.

'How am I being dramatic if it's the truth?' I ask.

'It's not the truth. Your acting ridiculous. Just go to bed or something, take a nap.' She said obliviously annoyed.

I sighed, the pep talk my wolf gave me didn't help at all.

I miss my family.. my grandma, my sister, max... and my mom and dad. I wonder how things would have turned out if I still had them with me. Would anything change?

I reached over and turned on the tv. It was a long drive and I am so tired. I changed the channel to "Once Upon a Time" it's the show that I have been obsessed with lately. Captain Hook was mighty fine, and I was so jealous of Emma.
(authors note: if you had not seen "Once Upon a Time" then I suggest you do because I LOVE that show very much and I call dibs on Captain Hook)

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I turn off the tv and turn to look at he clock, it was now 11:30 am. I feel like this day is going by two slowly, I took a nap and watched tv for three hours and I am so bored.

When somebody is bored, wouldn't that mean they are desperate to do anything? I'm the opposite of that so would I be... anti-bored or like unbored? I don't think that's a word but who cares.

I hear a slight knock on my door and I turn my head to the left from where I heard to sound of a door opening.

"Hey, Emma and Jack and I are going out to eat and want to know if you want to come." Cole said poking his head into the room with a bright smile on his face making his blue eyes pop out more. Cole is my friend I met 4 or 5 years ago. Emma is his mate and Jack well.. he's always just been there and we are all just a group of friends. I haven't seen them in a while I really missed them.