This year has been a strange one. Perhaps the strangest of all the strange years since I left my mom's house.
Am seeing a shrink. He says I suppress my anger, and that I have anger and unresolved abandonment fears due to my parents' divorce.
I think I am a bit of a people pleaser. When little I loved to entertain everyone. I loved seeing people happy, especially my mom, I tried hard to never become a nuisance to her, or to her new relationships. I still love her so much, I tell her everything. She knows, she is one of the few ones that knows all my secrets.
Maybe I have suppressed the sadness of my father leaving, my parent's separation, maybe I blocked the feelings of abandonment, which is why I now seek this unattainable relationship and hold on to it as if I were an orphan seeking refuge.
It's almost summer, the time to fall in love, to have fun, to feel sexy, to be lustful. I used to love touring with you in summer. You looked best in summer, Z, you looked best always when you were next to me.
Can I shout your name out? Can I?
My shrink would have said: Harry, who are you really longing for?
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When Harry met Z
RomanceThis is the story of When Harry Met Z. A group of aspiring singers's lives changed overnight when chosen to form a band by the biggest producer in the world. The bandmates shared everything for about five years, but things became complicated when t...
